Luke - God pleaser

An outlet to share.

2010-05-19T00:30:00.002+08:00

Live for the audience of one.

Indeed, the above statement is especially hard to live up to, esp when one's getting older and more mature. Throughout my 2 years in NS, I try to live up to this mantra, but it was never easy. On one hand, i wanna live for God, but ppl are forever trying to test my limits and force my carnal nature out. I always thought going out of NS and entering worklife, would made life easier. Instead, I ended up compromising more. As in, sometimes u wanna do wat is right, yet in order to save time (n ur ass sometimes), I jus kept quiet and followed suit.

However, by constantly mediating on God and praying, i realised that during those rash and uncomfortable moments I tend to curse less in my heart. Maybe perhaps I'm more tolerant to the prepare, as usually I'll either say sth nasty and regretted it aft or i jus backed off n sweared in my heart. The latter default mechanism is in-built since army days, when u r flooded with crude and vulgarities.

Personally, Fasting does works for me. Whenever the hunger pangs, you will tend to think of food, but when u realised u r spending the day fasting, u'll naturally pray. As a result, u will not want to be so unspiritual, as u r more aware of God, as if he's watching my every step, word or intention. Thus, I would say i did live for Him, for that instance.

This is exactly wat happened today. In order to prepare ourselves spiritually for ID conference, my tg aka cg decided to Fast n Pray to
1) Prepare ourselves for the conference
2) Fun n Fellowship
3) Greater dependency and obedience to God and Holy Spirit.

I'm really looking fwd to a time of Fun n Fellowship. May the lord continue to bless me n my tg.

Thank you.

Im finally back.

2009-11-18T03:42:00.002+08:00

ORD is drawing near as i just finished another milestone in my NS life--fought Atech in Austrailia. In exercise wallaby, my unit went Aus to have an evaluation. If one will to ask why we go so far just to be evaluated, well my ans will be that Aus is only big enough for my unit, as we r too familarise with Singapore terrain.
But then again, I'm quite sure we are well-versed with SWBTA, esp the most seniors. Even, i myself came last yr to recce the place. Maybe this is called cheat code or 'half a battle won', as in fact, we knew the place better than Atech.

All in all, it's a good fight and we r awarded only silver, as our sis, adf is our enemies. (if not for those chiongsters, we may get exceeding expectations result)

Life is actually quite tough there, for we r forever in the field with absolutely zero form of sanitation. One can never get his feet clean before sleeping. Even showering is subjected to water, thus we must RATION the water output. Some actually resorted to using drinkable water to shower or vice versa--obtaining hot shower water for hungry cup noodles nites.

It's either hot in the day or cold in the night for the 1st part. Then the weather changed drastically to cold and wet towards the 2nd half of the stay. In a way, being wet is good, as the rain prevent some dust from flying. Basically, in polygon camp, it's forever dusty or muddy. since the higher up don't wanna invest in gravel n small stones, unlike other camps.

Life is so pathetic that even our basic food must be transported, since the place is too dirty to have a kitchen. Ironically, we (even) BBQ for our end of frame dinner. In the beginning, many opt for cup noodles, as the teleported food isn't as fresh. While, at the end, many resigned to fate and have no qualms on eating cold food with a speck of sand, dust, flies or wat not.

As for the use of internet, there are only 4 previous coms using ONE cpu, to be shared amongst 400 plus tech-savy and bored soldiers. Some re--kindled the passion on facebook games, over the about 1 month stint at Queensland, Rockhamton.

However, I'm back, and am a transformed man, as i begin to appreciate things. Such as home-cooked and Singaporean food, sanitation (clean feet to bed!), communications, aka internet, etc.
In a nutshell, it was a different and enriching--esp thr last night at polygon-- experience! Cheers!

Live for the audience of ONE.

Arsenal vs Blackburn highlights!

2009-10-14T02:18:00.001+08:00

Arsenal vs Blackburn highlights!

This is Cool!

Going to Australia soon.

2009-10-08T21:54:00.002+08:00

In another 11days, I would travel to Australia to fight Atech. Hence, the battalion is like tone down a lot. As i forget when is the last time we had a full 5.5 day week, let alone a 4.5day week. Ironically, they would rather burnt our weekend than weekday. Just last week we booked in on wed night(when man u played wolfsburg) for live firing, then sat is another live firing.

To make matter worse, i was thrown an arrow to do COS on sun, like on thurs! like that i effectively burnt 2 weekends, and that is too much! How can i get adjust to the sudden confinement? After enjoying so many long weekends and offs. Thank god, i got a wisdom tooth extraction on tues, means i got a break..

However, it's terrible as my bottom left teeth is stuck and is growing sideways, thus i need a minor opeartion. I lost a lot of blood in the process, and my whole face swelt up! Nonetheless, though i was given 7 days MC to recuperate, i nd to return to camp to pack my bag for some stupid overseas trip..

29 Sep 2009

2009-09-30T04:19:00.006+08:00

On my birthday...

29 Sept 2009, is my actual 21st birthday. I woke up just to take a cab to go for coy cohesion at SDBA. My platoon boat came in 3rd in some coy Dragon Boat competition. Being 3rd is mediocre and good, as we did not get a day off and more importantly, we aren't the luggage party.

As a birthday boy, I expected to get wet. Low and behold, I'm the target man, and those around me suffered too. Sorry my neighbours. We went to eat beef hor fan and tau hui at Geylang later, where PC treated us with lime juice.

When the night falls, my core team met me at my house area and we had Pastamania for dinner at hougang mall. Soon after the meal, three of them disappeared and abandoned me, saying there are some surprises for me, so i waited lonely at the eatery.

Joel then brought me to the 13th storey of blk 461 (where I recalled my ex-shepherd gave me a visual illustration to encourage me to win my former school--hihs then). When i looked down, I saw "HAPPY 21ST" clearly spelled out with candle lights. It was such a touching sight. I mean, I wonder who will create such a wonderful surprise for me! And that's not all! They gave me a really LARGE black card, with our cg members scribbled all over the edges, PLUS there is a "pop-up" of Luke's figure, wearing a cross embedded t-shirt; scoring a goal! On top of it all, I was given a self-baked chocolaty cake named "Death over Chocolate", which is my 1st love too!

It was an awesome display of hardwork, appreciation, and delicate love! Darryl included all my desires--Christ, buddies, soccer and chocolate! I mean, who actually bother to be so meticulous, unless he is keen and sincere in seeing a wide smile from me!? Thank God for you, Joel, Darryl and Wenwei! It is great to know and serve alongside with marvellous brothers like you all!
Even my family love the wonderfully made chocolate mousse!

Let's win the camps toge!

My 21st!

2009-09-30T03:36:00.002+08:00

The Special Day!

YO! To all who made the effort to attend my 21st birthday bash: THANK YOU ALL for making it so special and memorable. I don't think i would forget 25th Sept 2009.

Celebrating 21st to some is just another birthday, or worse still, another day. But to me, it's special, as it is a time for me to reflect on my life, setting some goals and deadlines. In short it's very authentic to me.
So I recklessly booked a 3 days 2 nights chalet and get the food ready at the eleventh hour. To make matters more exciting, I hold the coveted BBQ event on a Friday evening, when majority of my friends are busy with their work. As oddly, exams and unit events are usually stipulated right smack in the middle of late Sept!

Therefore, it was such a great encouragement to witness 50 over guests turning up to celebrate with me. Never do I expect to see so many people from different walks of life (don't know whether appropriate to use this expression) to surround my tiny J20 BBQ pit. The crowd is so overwhelming that I do not know how to cope, for I'm not a trained public speaker or am taught well on crowd control and management.

Due to my inadequacy, one could see how I frantically scurrying around trying to serve food and make everyone feel at home. On a side note here, i will like to apologise for not being a good host.

Seriously, i did enjoy myself, from
-trying to start a fire,
-BBQ food,
-setting up the place,
-bringing out the frozen food,
-coordinating and planning my own cutting of cake,
-smsing and picking up calls and directing to J1920,
-smiling and taking different groups photos,
-playing pranks (cake smashing)
-clearing up the place,
-forever entertaining people
-serving people
-wrestling,
-watching phobia 2 with my bunkmates(screaming like a mad dog in the theatre!)
-sleeping with 13 men.

All this experiences are only possible with your presence! Thank you once again, all who participated in Luke's 21st growing up party. May God bless us in the years to come.

Live for the audience of ONE.

2009-09-30T03:24:00.004+08:00

Live for the audience of ONE.

This could be an emotional post.

I figured out that it is pointless to live for anyone, since nobody is forever worthy of my life. Well, I'm not suicidal, just very realistic. There are times where people will fail and disappoint you.
It is always easier to live for 1 person, as you only need to be concern of Him and His attention on you, etc. Basically, you need not divide your concentration on so many audiences, and try all your efforts to please him/them.

However, it would also be hard to live for yourself. One would realise that, as human, one will err, thus, during those weak moments, it would be impossible to depend on oneself. In addition, by living for yourself only, it would be a lonely task, as there is no another person to evaluate you or encourage your progresses.

Therefore, on hindsight, I've decided to live for the audience of ONE. For he worth all my life, time, energy and talent.
Dear God, please help me to live for you only. Do always remind me of WWJD. I really am sick and tired of trying to fix myself to suit certain people. I mean, can't i be who I am and yet gain 100% approval? Well, only in your eyes, I am forever your treasured possessions. ( Deut 7:5-7)
This is my sincere prayer.

From your son, Luke.

What happen in the past 2 months.

2009-09-15T15:30:00.001+08:00

After I've passed my BTT, i went to apply PDL and ask for a private instructor to learn driving. Personally, i felt it was too rash for me as I still got to take FTT. As a result, my lessons are damn far apart. To date, i only had 5 lessons of which, only 1 is at the circuit. Also, realised that circuit is damn hard and expensive, every minute counts!

In July, i didn't do as many duties as i did in the previous. Perhaps, csm knew the pain I'm going thru. Another reason was that I had a 2 weeks mini UAV course which was very hectic as there were 5 tests to take and passed, or else I would OOC. Seriously, i don mind OOC as i could come back. But for responsibility and pride(face) sake, i did study hard. It was another episode of A levels for me. Besides, my course mates are regulars, plus the red berets, SOP, ADF, in other words, BIG shots. Surprisingly, I graduated the theory part, now waiting to be certified once i passed my practical flights.

In August, as usual i've got a couple of duties and out fields.

Basically, these 2 months i've nothing to blog about..

The month of June.

2009-07-08T00:03:00.002+08:00

In the month of June alone, i burnt 3 weekends and did 3 guard duties. It was damn shag month. As I as if did not get to sleep on my bed. I had an overnite cycling on the 13th, and had BBQ on the 21st. Worth mentioning was that i invited 2 of my friends to the event. It was great to see them in labrador park.

Then on the 30th June we had Atech evaluation for stage 1. I had BTT on the same day, apparently, I could not attend, since nation above self. Thus, i jus squandered $6. Treat it as investment for the defence of my country, haha, you see, if i do not go for the atech, how can i know whether my unit is opearational ready. Then assuming we were activated, will i or the unit have the confidence to fight? Therefore, it is a noble sacrifice. haha, but i booked my 2nd attempt tmr, so pray 4 me.

Oh ya, another thing i wanna boast is that the 2 atech stations that i participated, i achieved a Redcon 1 for both of it! Means the best ever result!

On a sad note, MJ had passed away, i hope im able to see him in heaven. I grew up listening to his songs and watched his MTVs! Like BEAT IT and Billie Jean!
It's a pity that the world do not have him..

Why June?

2009-06-06T01:48:00.002+08:00

Why June? Or why is there so much to do in the month of June?

In this month alone, I have 3 guard duties plus burnt a full weekend; due to a Combat Shoot, which I could not afford marksmanship ($200). Despite having such a hectic month, because of ATEC stage 1, there are still tons of things to do.
Physically, there are already 3 IPPT tests and 1 SOC test. I could only attend the 1st IPPT, which i obtain a full 25 points Silver, shy of 30s to get the coveted Gold ($200) award.

Burning weekends could mean some weakening to my health, both spiritually and physically. I could never recover from sleeping during weird hours in these 3 consecutive weeks. Officially, I burnt 3 Sundays! In addition, during the weekdays, there seems to have unfinished business everyday. It's very suffocating.
My prayer life, although increases, as I had made many desperate prayers, yet it does not aid in bringing nearer to God. I find myself cursed more in my mind within these weeks.

Life is so tough! I am forever pondering whether to be successful, as it could amount to more work (''SK"). But ("CK") or rather feigning weak could be a form of lying, or not been salt and light. God, when can i take a breather?

I need you more than anything. Please sustain me, grant me my daily bread, Oh sovereign Lord.

Victory in Chirst alone.

2009-05-18T02:42:00.002+08:00

Victory in Christ Alone

NS.UNI.YG church camp held at Stands field Residence, with the theme, victory in Christ, was a life-changing camp. Personally, i m very blessed and touched and overwhelmed with a lot of convictions and dreams.

Man, it has been a long time since i was last, so transformed by God's presence, purpose and promises. The 3 Ps had kept me going for the past 9 years. Never did i regret, and never will i. There are so many things i wanna do now. I think, as a start, is to deal with my inner man. I really want to live a biblical life. A life that is ordained by God, motives seasoned by God. I may need to revisit some hurtful memories. I may need to be vulnerable, once again taking out the facade of a strong face.

Ex Highnoon.

2009-05-18T01:47:00.003+08:00

From Apr 8 through till may 1st, i went to Taiwan with the army. It was quite a meaningful trip, as there are a lot of significance to train there, given the mountainous terrain. I had a great time there, too. The weather is very much cooler compared to Singapore, because of its low humidity. The food is also awesome! As for the lot of girls, according to my friends, they are more good looking and especially kinder. Given a chance, i will go back there again.

Anyway, i wanna blog about some experiences that are unforgettable. I had 1 near death experience, that's when we were walking on some dried up river bed in the middle of night. You see, Taiwan nights are much darker than our nation, as there are lesser street lamps. So we came across some wild buffaloes on our way. Initially, we wanted to walked passed their sides, but they escaped to the left. However, it was inaccessible, so they detour to the right, but a calf was left behind and it cried. The parents, i suppose, reversed and began to charge at us. Hence, we fled for our lives. I tried to climb up some steep slope, as we were in a valley.
Thankfully, those beasts missed us, perhaps, due to their huge weight and size--not agile to change directions. Mind you, they DO have horns and one of their head is as big as a lorry's fearsome front.

Well, i do have another dying experience. During some mission, i was trying to escape from my enemies. In my attempt of not being captured, we decided to head to some deep ravine and climbed to our hiding place. Unfortunately, it was too sandy and steep to even climb on all fours. So i decided to give up and use the convention method--walk by the road. As it was equally slippery to get down, somehow, i flew from a height of 3 storeys and landed face down. There were a slience of 3s from me, as I was too stunned to respond to my friend's worried plea. During that time, i was assessing my injuries, and praying that my head dont bleed, as it's going to be messy. Once again, God blessed me. I was ok, except some deep bruises on my limbs.

There was a whirlpool of thoughts running through my mind, throughout the trip. Thoughts of being lonely, betrayed and some delighted moments constantly flooded my mind. All in all, it was a wonderful vacation, plus 3days and 3 nights R n R is simply awesome.

Taiwan Trip

2009-04-08T16:00:00.002+08:00

In another 10 hours, i would be on a plane to Taiwan for my Battalion exercise. I'll be gone till 1 may. So do missed me, and pray for me for journey mercy.

Anyway, i got a piece of good news, that is i finally promoted! By far, i took the longest to promote, more than a year of service. That's longer than any OFFICAL, as in 2nd lieutenant. Graduated from RCC on the 3rd of Apr at Lim Chu Kang hill! It was a very tiring course, ranging for 7 weeks!

Now that im 3 SG, i wanna impact more ppl, God do bless me...

increase my spiritual hunger.

2009-03-01T12:17:00.002+08:00

Recently, i talked with DC and he shared with me a concept. It is about everybody has a set amount of appetite, that is for all things, be it spiritual or natural, or even of evil content. He was saying if one kept craving for natural and sinful things, the desire for spiritual things usually drops. Likewise, if one greatly hunger for SPIRITUAL things, the connection and time for other things failed to compare.

Hence, i wanna be very conscious of the Holy Spirit. In this way, i can be so aware of His presence, and therefore, live a more righteous life.

In addition, i thought of another idea. The idea of existence of Boredom. Boredom exists because it act like a litmus, which tests the discipline and hunger for spiritual things. If God is always so tangible to us, we'll be spoilt. So in peacetime, we ought to make effort to come near to God, so that He will come near to us.

On another note, im so glad with MAN U performance! They are so powerful this season that pool and chelsea failed to compare, let alone talk about the disappointing arsenal. However, a special note can be made to Aston Villa, which break into the Big Four. Everton too, did well in catching up arsenal, with an awesome win ytd.

Therefore, without a doubt, MAN U will lift up the Carling Cup, aka League Cup, when they trashed tottenham with like 4-1? The only sad point is i cant witness the Victory.

By the way, ytd i went prawning with my CG at bishan, it was very entertaining, when u really able to fish out 2 prawns, after like 10 over attempts.

As tmr im going for EX LONGWALK, which is a guresome 48hours navigation, which will cover like 54-60km worth of walking with like 20-25kg load!
God do bless me, for when there are troubles, there will be prayers and dependence.

CNY

2009-02-08T00:39:00.002+08:00

CNY

This year was an emotional year for me. Just right before CNY, i had a terrible stomachache! It was so painful, that i wanna die, it was really excruciating. I kept vomiting non-stop. For like 2 hours, i am forever puking, it was so jialet, that i puke out acid plus saliva. I never felt so horrible, since i start became sensible. This experience remind me of during a period of time, i was quite depressed, that i become bulimic. I actually vomitted watever i had eaten. I also thought of those pregnant ladies, maybe that's how they felt. Well, i'll treasure my wife in the future.

THANK god for morphine! Without the numbing effect, i'll not stop crying man. So my cny was not exactly a good start. But it was heartwarming as we had an extended family protait, aka a picture. We never had a picture toge, since my grandparents passed away..

Thank God for my resourceful small aunt, who is able to unite the whole family, in the midst of financial crisis. Usually, people will just hide in their homes. But this year we had BIG reunion toge. thank god for my family.

Although this year the ang baos is smaller, I had a really good time as we share lives and talk more. Sometime, it's good for crisis, as it brings ppl closer. But, god, i'am not asking for it!!!

To make my CNY worse, i got chest pains aft stomachache. MAN, i got a weak stomach, now weak chest.. I've seen a doc, she evenask me to go for ECG and X-ray! Ghoss, didnt know so serious. But turn out that the X-ray report was positive, jus some mild infections in the lungs. So i was prescribed ANTIBIOTICS. I had never taken antibiotics in my life, before these incident.

However, i was given 1 week MC!!!!!! hahahaa, wat a trade. But staying at home too long, i rather go chiong! hahaa what an irony..

month of JAN

2009-02-01T20:47:00.003+08:00

JANUARY

Last month was a hectic month. For i finally PASSED OUT of GCC as a full-fledged Guardsmen! It was a long and arduous journey. Learnt alot, experiences many.
It was an unforgettable experience, 1 that i'll not forget, 1 that i'll not possibly trade. It was during GCC, that i tore my boots! Hence, i desperately need 1 Gortex boots for my upcoming RCC!

Oh ya, i had vertical marathon at CMPB tower too. Clocked not bad timing, though it was very tiring to climb 22 storeies!

I had a thorough spring cleaning at my house too, im so going to decorate my room, with my hong bao money!!!

THE GOLDEN CALF SAGA

2009-02-01T20:20:00.002+08:00

THE GOLDEN CALF SAGA

I saw JX's nick so decided to do the most common Singaporean student do, copy.

Today we have a LIFE-TRANSFORMING UCG at 6 Kvn cls. No joke, it was definitely, divine exchange for me. I was so touched by the saying: if u cant live out to a 2 month vision, don even talk abt THE GREAT COMMISSION!

I've confessed some dirty little secrets, now on the path to recovery!

XL drawings!

2008-12-28T01:21:00.003+08:00

My talented frens' drawing! All hand drawn and coloured before scanning to computer.

GCC

2008-12-28T00:34:00.004+08:00

Guards Convension Course

GCC is one of my most feared course, as i heard a lot of nasty and scary stories about it. Like how many ppl fall out or OOC(out of course) fr this course. True enough, many rumors came true.

On the 1st night(15 dec), the cardea turn us out 3 times. The 1st time was 1 am, when they made us ran around like some scurrying mice, cos they asked us to put 3 different packs to 3 different corners in like 120seconds! Of course, we failed to do so, with a sleepy mind, we did many push-ups.

When we thought all was over, at 3am, the 2nd turnout. This time we were asked to change to pt kit, then to No4. Obviously, we didnt meet the timing, n got punished. then we were forced to march ar the whole 2km long bedok camp, twice.

After the fast march, our shins were burning, they asked us to shower and powder bath till we are specticular clean. When in bed for 2 hours, the third one came. This time it was deadly, for we MARCHED all the way to ECP for youknowhat--BEACH PT! Which is a characteristic of the GUARDS formation.

It was tough to remain dry, for we were ordered to move into the sea in pumpin position. To make matter worse, we did wat some call the' beach breakdance', swaping positions fr Superman, to Crunches, to pumpins. Then we were to leopard crawled through our frends, yes thru! so all of us remain in push ups stance, with butts sticking up. Each time 1 person's knee touches the ground, 1 more ppl is added to the chain..

When all was over, we marched back with squeaky boots. This is the toughest so far. Unless u consider FBO (Full Battle Order) everywhere we go. we ought to say/pledge the Guards ceed, before our meals.

However, the tower RAPPLING is really fun and enjoyable! We cleared it in FBO, And SBO(Skeleton BO).

As of now, we Cleared the tower rappling package, 0.5km, 1km, 1.5km swim and 8,910km fast march. which is quite fast!

There are 5 veto factors to graduate fr GCC, cleared

LIVE heli decent
2km coastal swim
12km fast march in 108min or less
Participate SUMEX
No more than 3 days MC, passed all tests!

Looking at things, we are half way there! So That's the end for PHASE ONE.
Thank God for a week break before PHASE 2 starts on 1st JAN.

God bless me..

Operation Push button Camp.

2008-12-08T18:58:00.002+08:00

Operation Push button Camp

I just came back from our very 1st ns camp! The camp is from sat 061208-081208. It was held at Costa Sands Resort and SAF Seaview Resort--Changi Haven.

The 1st day i was late as i was confined, because a mag went missing, then there's stand by bed for very long. I was also very shag, as consecutive 3 days i had runs, Thur i had AGR, Fri, Interval, sat i had IPPT, which i was awarded GOLD!

Hence, i reached only when they had BBQ. Heard that the camp commander and games master each was tau pok and got MUDBATH! Met alot of new frens and ate alot. Some how i was been targeted to be thrown in the sand.

The 2nd day, we woke up on 6.30am to do QT, then went for some Fun Run in our various vocational pt, at 7.30am which lasted 20min. Then we had breakfast and fellowship till 11am, before setting out for 4hours of games. Balloons, blindfolds, poison balls, treasure hunt and water bombs. In the process i was MUDBATHED. The mud is so sticky that though we try to wash in the sea, there are still alot of stains. Actually, i managed to escape alot of attempts of 'tau poks' and 'mud/sand bath'. But ultimately, i was captured and pinned. So, when im down, i made sure alot ppl went down with me.

After a good long shower, we had lunch until workshop. That's when i realised im terribly sun burnt and injured from 2 days of struggles. The shepherd workshop is the 1st spiritual input, which i learnt much. Like always use the WOG, as it is my only source of authority. We role play and shared testimonies. Can tell everyone was quite shag already. Next we had dinner before going for our very own service.

We LORRIED there. It was a new experience for many pampered youths who only witnessed Bangadeshi workers did that. It was amazing to note that P n W can be carried out without drums. Jie Hui shared a msg regarding waging spiritual warfare, and many responded to the 3 altar calls. Talked with Elvin, Tim's fren till very late, before going back as the last batch.

Then we had dinner at Mac, thank God for the 24hr concept. Then the Poly ppl made me eat some disgusting mix, because i lost in a number game. Waited for joel, till i slept. The nex day, we left soon aft breakfast. However, i wrestled with ys and coy while watching amazing race..

After reaching haven, we had a evax teaching before going for lunch. Joshua came talked with us, saying our spilting plans. At the end of this year we are going independent as a tertiary service. It sounded so exciting la, but means alot of moving abt too.
Lunch at Changi V was fantastic, as i was fasting before camp. One should patronish there often, as they really had good food.

Im back!

2008-11-05T17:04:00.002+08:00

Today i touched down at ar 3am. Then headed to DFS to find my max allowance of 3L of alcohol. Then shared a cab with Treviz and Kenneth to go home. I finally reached my house, for 16 days i had yet to sleep on my bed, shower in my toilet and use the com.

I learnt much in this trip. Nurtured some broken relationships. Ate all kinds of food(from clams to chicken, bacon to beef, (bloody) mary to mutton.). Drink all kinds of drinks, apple juice to abstinth.
All in all, it was a fruitful trip.

In the span of 2 weeks, i slept most of the time, haha cos the 1st few days we have nothing better to do, so we conduct our own body maintainence. Then we ran twice before A-tech. Which is a 5day 4 nite field camp. i did not bath/brush my teeth for 5 consective days! After A-tech, Sam Hill is like my another home, cant wait to shower, although we were told that there arent enough water..

By the way, i stayed at tentage 42 at Samuel Hill North Camp. There are 16 safari beds and sleeping beds. It was rather cramp to have 16 of us in the pathetic tent. You can actually hear ppl snoring loudly! Together with South camp, Sam Hill is voted as the best camp, given its wonderful toilet facilities. Imagine you can shit in a proper toilet bowl(with no maggots eating ur fasces) and there is actually warm water to bath!

GTG, need to enjoy my leave, and not stay at home!

I need help in HTML

2008-10-16T22:50:00.002+08:00

Help! I accidentally changed my blog skin without knowing it will earase my links and my chat-box! Arr! Can somebody enlighten me? 97357224..

A terrible period at Bedok Camp.

2008-10-16T21:57:00.002+08:00

As this post is fairly emotional, i decided to change the blog skin.

This week has been very tough for me. I'm (i think) officially outcast by my bunk. What i meant was i could no longer relate to them with all bluntness i have, when relating to my closer friends.

Once, i was told that i always like to rush into deep relationships with people. Well, i admit that my personality is kinda on-the-rush type, but more often than not, those friendships i 'hurried' usually turn out to be quite positive.

Unfortunately, I was wronged nowadays. I suspected that there are some misunderstandings and perhaps some rumors going around. So the start of the week i try to remain low profile and try to use my actions to prove my 'innocence'. Yet again, i failed. Somehow all my efforts seems in vain.

To matter worse, i somehow overheard a guy gossiping about me. i was so devastated as i never felt so unpopular with people. All my life, my bubbliness is able to help me cruise by people, im always able to escape from people's judgment and labels.

However depressing i felt, my friends kept smsing me to remain pure, not to do what they r doing, which is wrong. Hence, regardless of how evil i felt, i kept my mouth shut and kept my evil intentions to myself.

After meeting with Joel just now, i realised that there's hope for a miracle regarding my problem. They always say that bigger problem will give rise to bigger blessings. So if my situation is damn unsolvable, all the more God's name will be praised even more!

Then, that's when i had a little chat with my Maker. How good it is if that enemy of mine become my future sheep? ( It'll be the biggest prank from God though!)

I'm now looking forward to go unknown land--Australia--with my bunk mates. So as to share life and impact and bless them with my life. i'm so going to remain this postive about unforsee circumstances, man. god do bless and help me!

WALLABY EX

2008-10-10T20:27:00.003+08:00

Announcement: I'll be going to Australia from Oct 20--Nov 5, for a Wallaby exercise with the army. We r going to somewhere in Queensland, Australia.

I heard that the place we r going is a desert land, so sad that there is no easy access to water, means i cant drink often, let alone shower! However, the night will be damn cold too. I've to take care of myself, as the weather is pain-staking. maybe, I'll be much tanner when returned.

All the best, do pray for me!

My birthday!

2008-10-01T19:52:00.002+08:00

On September 29, God created me 2 decades ago. So thinking because im 20 i decided to have a slight reflection of my life, thus far.

Seriously, i was a very 'chi-na' guy, as i was one very mandarin-speaking. however, after going to church and high school i started to converse in English, as it was the cool thing to do those days. Soon, i can only speak English, (however, broken) and my Mandarin sounded weird.

I had know Christ for 8 years. Initially, i was very motivated to be a Christian because of a girl i liked. She introduced Jesus to me. but, once i caught the vision and the word, i'm convicted of what i believe in! Perhaps, it's this conviction that carried me through these years.

Anyway, i wanna Thank God for that day. 290908 was the first day i spent at Guards, as i booked in 1 week later than my bunk mates, and yet CSM still gave me a night's out ( actually i could have asked for off, since im commander-to-be.)

So at around 6pm i booked out and headed to City Hall, as a brunch of friends are going to celebrate my special day. Han yang, Bruce, Joel and Ying Lin were there at Soup Spoon. We ordered some soup to share and drink.

After the full of goodness meal, we had a long talk, when i learnt several things. I was so blessed that i slept very well that nite. I realised that thid family of God is worth investing in.

Drving Test

2008-09-26T22:37:00.001+08:00

I Finally passed my JEEP Driving Test for the 4th time! haha, plus another 100km of AUTO jeep, i'll graduate! Thank God!

F-up during jeep course.

2008-09-25T00:21:00.003+08:00

today i just came back fr BBQ at ECP, pit number 79G. It's the most ulu place/location to hv BBQ with lots of half naked guys, wings and charcoal.

i suppose to stay in toge with my CPL friends, but apparently i failed my driving test for the THIRD time. So pc ask me go home to rest and reflect a little on my mistakes. WHAT a great blessing to have such a wonderful pc! really thank God for this grace and providence!

One of these days i'll blog abt how blessed im to have such a fantastic pc. Anyway, for the BBQ actually i don't wanna go, bcos im too ashamed to see my friends and commanders. I have had let alot of ppl down man. I disappoint Eni Ahmad too, as he came all the way down jus to conduct Islandwide with me, so confident that i'll pass...

When i failed thrice, my instructor almost kill me. He threatened to give me extra RT. He kept fking, insulting and accusing me, until my welling point. I almost went somewhere to cut myself or commit suicide man. It was so unbearable, as in the pressure! As a result, when i left in a cab on tue morning, for im late for JEEP (due to stress-> lack of rest), I actually LOST MY HP! To think i thank the uncle and gave him some tips, how could he be so ungrateful? Why will anyone steal my useless, non camera phone? Without my hp, how am i going to be contactable?

Life just sucks at this point of time. Hope that some good will result for all these mess..

DC bday

2008-08-19T20:44:00.002+08:00

Today, i was awaken late because i was sleeping on my bed.

Met up with DC to go Cineleisure to eat n watch a movie. As it was his birthday, i decided to treat him Billy Bombers (actually i had some discount coupons..) We had a so-so meal as the serving wasn't 'American' size, but 'Asian', although the restaurant is an American one, what an irony.

After the lunch, we went to watch a movie. It was a good time spent toge.

Thank God for my vocation

2008-08-19T20:25:00.002+08:00

The reason why i've time to blog shows that my vocation rocks. Why? Because currently i'm on leave!

Tomorrow onwards i will start my JEEP course, i.e. mon-fri, 8-5pm! For 1 month! haha, then i got around 2 months of break, before my RCC, recee course.
Now who says i cant survive in 1 GUARDS? im in fact thriving!

Another thing i wanna thank God is that he bestowed me a God-loving PC! My capt rocks totally man! HE not only approves of my spiritual habits, but he also encourage me to give my best in everything i do. Even offered some good military-related Christian literature!
Isn't my life sounds fun?

1 GUARDS IRS

2008-08-15T15:24:00.002+08:00

Finally, i graduated from the 2nd phase of my army life. I just passed out from SISPEC, and am now holds a Corporal rank.

From 18 Aug, im heading to Bedok camp for my vocation--1 Guards IRS. Thank God fo this vocation, as it's near my house! Means, i could save up to $40 of cab fee a week! I hope im able to impact more people by being a recee sergeant!

JUMP 08

2008-08-02T12:06:00.001+08:00

Call me for more info! i'll be going if im not confined! 97357224

Im smashed by a DURIAN!

2008-08-02T11:36:00.002+08:00

on 31st JULY 2008, at 1005am, i was smashed by a falling DURIAN! But i survived! hahha, all the sergents and encik wanted me to give them 4 D numbers. haha, how lucky that i was wearing helmet and LBV at that moment.

Month of JUNE

2008-06-29T19:26:00.002+08:00

Month of June has been all abt catching the soccer fever. I did caught a couple of matches in the wee hours.

Having POP, i got blk leave too. So i adventurously travelled to Pular Tioman with a group of friends! This was mt 1st time went abroad with my friends man. Usually, i would travel with my relatives. It was an awesome experience, as it signalifies that i have had grown up!

I'll post the photos taken another time.

The privates of Hope Singapore also had a couple of outings together. We went soccering for 2 hours under the extremely hot sun, which burnt most of us. As a whole, we caught the live telecast of Germany beating Portual at Ben's house. THANK GOD FOR YOU BEN! You're a generous bro! Together, we even played overnght mahjong!

Towards the end of my blk leave, i realised i was posted to SISPEC. Personally, i was pretty disappointed as i cant make it to OCS. Well, those who know me well, knew the TRUE reason and motivation for be to even think of going SAFTI MI. haha, nonetheless, i'll excel and give my best!

Seriously, i think that ppl were selected to go OCS based on academic. But it's just my observation. Anyway, i shld thank God, as i dont get confine for 21 days! Ghoss, cant imagine life without FRIENDS AND REALTIVES, Clean clothings, Technology, Good Food, GALS, and FELLOWSHIP! I rather die man. haha. Still, i'll pray for my buddies who unfortunately, enter the best SAF command school. Let's all pray 4 them..

This month had been an emotional and decision-making one for me. After attended many good, inspiring and captivating services and sermons, i had, in my heart made a few choices to God. haha, want to find out more, call me. haha

Alright, off i go to PASIR LABA CAMP.. see ya net post. God bless.

Finally POP in 2 weeks!

2008-05-31T14:30:00.002+08:00

It has been almost a month before i came here. Well, from the previous posts, many would now that im doing a noble task--serving the nation. However, as a NSF, one is very limited. For we can only come out of our fav island, pulau tekong only on weekends and we are very limited in giving out SAF info, cos we might get charged.

Anyway, im going to POP soon. Which means i would be a private, no longer a recruit with effect on 10 june 2008!

NS Ministry Rocks!

2008-04-07T01:02:00.003+08:00

Match aside, i wanna take sometime to write down my reflections abt NS ministry.

Today was awesome. I woke up very early at 8.30, considering i only had 6.5 hr of slp, and had to rush to lavender street soccer court to play soccer! My team actually had a winning streak of around 10 matches! haha, but i didnt manage to score. However, i did contribute with a few assists! I joined a few teams, include ray,gf,pete ; ACS; etc. It was an enjoyable game! I'm sure going to play soccer aft my 1st booked out!

After soccer, i went GYM with Matthew and Song Jun,(we actually went planet fitness at THE CATHAY to shower!) Then, rushing to Istana for our 1st ever recruit CG! We had alot of fun playing cat n mouse( NS version ), worshiping God and listened to the WOG by Bruce and JL! Finally, we even wrote our plans and visions for the next 2 yrs. Our letters are stored in a time capsule for 730 days! Isn't that COOL?!

When CG is over we went PS to slack, before DC give me some sort of shepherding (my last one b4 enlistment). While the nite is still young, i went to watch SOCCER. What a way to 'party' my last 3 days of freedom?

Saturday was even cooler! I attended my 1st tertiary svc. It was kinda different, but i'll adapt real soon. THEN, we had my very 1st NS VISION NIGHT! It was totally MARVELLOUS! I had a powerful teaching and responded to God's call! I wanna be a SOLDIER of God, stop whining and start WINNING the world! To make my night even more special, we went tau hui (soybean curd)!
Imagine 15 guys coming toge to eat some supper that suspected of giving males, moobs? God was even more gracious to me by blessing me with a direct 6N home!

Actually, Mon, tmr, im again going out with the NS guys! We r going to beach rd to buy man stuffs!

ISN'T all these activities totally ROCKS BIG TIME?! I'm so proud of being in this ministry! It's a privilege man! Thank you, Lord.
I do not know whether National Service is going to be as Exciting and Enriching, but I shall 'know who i sweat for'! I'm going to be a biblical and righteous SOG!

God, do bless me, recruit S.H. Chua .

PS: SOG=soldier of God.

OMG MAN U drew with BORO!

2008-04-07T00:29:00.003+08:00

I jus returned home from a depressing but exciting match of MAN U drawing with Middlesbrough 2-2, at Rayson's house. Seriously, i would blame the freaking weather for the unexpected performance on my(or perhaps the World's) favourite Football Club. Some(like Guo Feng) blamed the black and white shirt combi, plus the shitty snow at Riverside Stadium. I believe all MAN U fans r cursing in their hearts for today's results, for at least i think Giggs and his mates tried very hard to score a 3 goals to 2. anyway, every match is very crucial, as today's match is the last sixth match, meaning underdogs clubs like chelsea and arsenal will catch up.

5 more freedom days

2008-04-04T16:20:00.000+08:00

i left with 5 more freedom days! Ghoss, so scary..

Sentosa

2008-03-22T01:06:00.005+08:00

Thank God for the awesome weather, it DID NOT rain in Sentosa! But i was pretty sun-burnt!

My new specs!

2008-03-22T00:34:00.005+08:00

This is my new specs! oh ya, my left eye dropped by 25degrees!

MY LOVE FOR ORANGE!

2008-03-20T00:41:00.002+08:00

ANNOUNCEMENT! I'm going to have the coolest specs TOMORROW! i shall upload a pic of the sleek and awesome orange glasses tmr, so pls come back!

My love for ORANGE has started since i was young! When i was born, i already love to drink and eat ORANGE! Soon aft i enter JC life, i bought an ORANGE-black specs, if u all dudes remember! However the 1st Luke's ORANGE merchandise was broken, when the sporty owner was involved in a brutal Bball match in 2007!

My ORANGE affair continue, when i bought an ORANGE CRUMPLER(the barney rustle blanket). Next, i have a craving for ORANGE things. Went to the extend of purchasing ORANGE ADIDAS spray; SPORTS FEVER edition. So crazy that 1 of my frens always comment that i smell the same(very nice), cos i wear that cologne everyday!

In addition, i owned a couple ORANGE of T-shirts/Shirts/Polo tee! To add to my frenzy collection, i bought an ORANGE belt!

My instinct is also attuned with ORANGE. Whenever i saw someone wearing that auspicious colour, even it's at the side of my eye, my head will turn to that direction! It happens many times! So pls, get me an ORANGE related present! hope u r convince!

Clarity of a vision

2008-03-11T23:46:00.001+08:00

The clarity of God's given vision.

I believe God will give each individual his personal vision. Even is he is a pre-believer. However, as to how clear and straight God's path for a person, is limited, or at least limited to God only. This is a theory i came out with, based on my life experiences.

Been an active Christian for almost a decade, i have had sat through teachings aft teachings regarding God's vision (for me). Usually, it always central around the theme on 'the security of one's destiny based on God's goodness'.

Sometimes one can have a very obvious and direct calling from God, but to other(at the same life station), he may not receive a clear direction. The reason could be that of a person's spiritual maturity(SM). However, fr wat i know, it is rather difficult to gauge one's SM, as SM is a very personal and delicate matter to one and God. Many a time, ministers of God will try to measure one's SM by checking his attendance or some essential spiritual habits. Although, i cant deny the fact that there is, indeed a positive correlation between attendance/spiritual habits and spiritual maturity.

Besides that point, somehow i believe there are some other cases, whereby people could actually discover their destiny by accessing their passions or grades or even family background and their brought up. But these are special cases and should not be very representative or applicable.

Whether or not, one receive his mission on earth, is SOLELY dependent of God.
God, being God, purposely creates different incidents for many people to realise their dreams and passions, at the most unusual and unique settings and situations. He did it such that even the most brilliant mathematicians or the cleverest scientists cant figure a pattern out. So that from their shame in not 'de-coding' God, His name would be praised and lifted high! For God is never confined to the law of probability. Like Albert Einstein said 'coincidences is God's way of remaining anonymous'.

That being said, God is still trustworthy. For he loves his creation, whosoever entrusts his future onto thy hand, shall be secure. Although one can never fathom God's ways, one can always believe in the creator of the universe. Therefore, i shall commit my plans onto thee (PROVERBS 3:5-6), for God's plans for me is prosperous and hopeful (Jeremiah 29: 11)!

Like a sheep, i'll follow the shepherd (Psalms 23:1).
'Shepherd of my soul, i'll give you full control. Wherever u lead me, i'll go.'

God, in you i trust, i shall commit my A-levels and University entry into ur hands. May you bless me and show me the way. May u also bless all my friends, helping them to find their purpose on earth.

A level results

2008-03-09T22:42:00.000+08:00

GOD PLS HELP ME!!!

Judgement Day in 3 days!

2008-03-05T00:25:00.004+08:00

Judgement Day is coming! Those who arent prepared would feel the strain and might worry of the result. However, those who have done their best, need not fear.

Well, i think i belong to 2 of the mentioned groups. For i believe i had done my best, yet still worry for the result. Haha, contradicting huh? Wat an oxymoron statement?

In 3 days time, the GCE A-level results would be announced! I'm always expectant of it, yet somehow prefer the date to be later. To think, i have been thru countless of teachings on trusting in God.

Anyway, i went out with JX today. He shared to me an impt truth. that is, wat's done is done, there's no pt worrying it; and The results is only crucial for u to go U, and there's no other impt purpose. So in conclusion, don worry. Hence, i decided to heed his advice!

Then again, if i get an A i'll give more offering to GOD, PLUS SC to 2 ppl by Good friday! It's a promise, God.

Oh ya, i did the ONE DAY CHALLENGE! I kept praying and singing worship songs. It's amazing how in tuned one can be with God, if one try! I'm going to do so more often..

May you bless me on Friday!

Loss of wallet

2008-02-20T00:31:00.002+08:00

God is awesomely Great! Sat aft svc, we had some mahjong session at canice's place till midnight. Before boarding the last bus, i dropped my wallet at her place. Thinking that's all for my careless habit, God has a weird sense of humor--allowing me to lose my wallet again within 15min!

Aft bidding good bye to YS n seeing him boarded a taxi, i finally realised i left my wallet conveniently on the bus. Hence, i sprinted all the way to SR interchange, even jaywalked(i.e i jumped over a 1.5m green fence/barrier!)!

Upon reaching the deserted terminal, there's no sight of my last bus--103M! Desperately, i pleaded with bus 82 uncle to at least send me to depot, so that i an retrieve my thing. To my great dismay, he said he cant help me, quoted 'come tmr morning n spent ur nite here'.

When my hope was dashed, that's when i had an emo time. I frantically called every of my frens in the vicinity. However, at my 1st defense no 1 came to my rescue, let alone picking up my emergency calls.

Aft resigning to fate, i jus realise i had an aunt who lived there. So i phoned her. Once again, my cries were unattended! Sadly, i walked up and down the road, even try my very best to knock on the door of my 4th aunt. However, to no avail.

THEN, as if there's light shinin down fr heaven, a buddy called! the hero in dazzling armor is none other than Joseph Tan! He invited me to his hse and even treat me VERY hospitably!
As if all these wasnt enough, we even had some heart-to-heart chat!

Moving on, i went to the station in the morning, yet as expected, my black, square bi pao wasnt found. So i went work with an extremely heavy heart, thinking of my lost IC, ATM, n EZ-link, hse key, etc.

GOD really ans prayers. At 1400hrs, the station master called n said that an all-honest bus captain came fwd n return my precious, in tact! Overjoyed, i headed down aft work! God bless the Captain. May he be blessed and promoted!

(God, is this ur usual way of dealing with me, a mere man?)

It was indeed an eventful valentine week! I had acquired much. From restoring my relationship with God as i did some soul-searching, to learn to trust God n ppl.

Now, next wk, i wanna see JC NORTH filling up 7 rows, with YJ taking 4! May there be visitors n CONVERTS! God bless yishun jc!

The power of CG

2008-02-05T01:43:00.000+08:00

Do you know the power of CG? Well, personally i experience it 1st hand! It was always a great feeling to attend CG, as one would feel spiritually stronger and stuff.

Today, after attending CG, although it's just a dinner, i felt very great abt it! I think it was a MARVELLOUS idea to have cg in the midweek, so tt every1 can meet one another and God!

Just 2 wks ago, when we had CG on thur (24 jan), then on sat, the whole YJ cg pon svc, as we had CVD--a funfair. The thur CG was awesome as all of us are touched and challenged by God. The CG is able to sustain us to next wk, when we had BBQ, before going svc on that sat, which is last wk!

No wonder i felt so great when attending svc last wk, as if i was deprived of God for a wk! Anyway, i was extremely glad that i attended svc, since it mentioned sth that's close to my heart--FAMILY.

Seriously, without CG on midweek, i doubt i could barely survive in this wrecked earth, where it was filled with unreasonable ppl and circumstances..

Hence, i'm a strong advocate for CAREGROUP! It was indeed ESSENTIAL!

anyway, happy lunar new year to all!

Euguene Converted!

2008-02-04T01:27:00.000+08:00

3 CHEERS AND 3 CHEERS AND 3 CHEERS FOR THE CONVERSION OF eugene! Hip hip hurray!!

ACTS 29

2007-12-12T18:56:00.000+08:00

I just came back from CAMP, while waiting for hair to dry, i shall blog!

This camp had transformed my life totally, as i'm more faith-filled and trust in God more! Because of ACTS 29, i finally found my life purpose! I was called to do God's work! I'm a disciple of Christ! I'm commissioned to complete THE GREAT COMMISSION in my lifetime, by fulfilling CG08.

My Camp objectives were:
1 Learn about EQ
2 Have a fresh vision/rehma word from God
3 Learn about discipleship

You know wat? I fulfilled all my objectives!
Initially, i really doubt my faith and existence in this world, for it seems to me that everything that i've done does not bear fruits! However, after talking to my beloved Saviour, my perspective was changed thoroughly! I no longer need to live a abnormal Christian life, but one that is very active and normal!

I also regained my confidence in Christ! I'm more secure of my own salvation and potential! I'm assured that fr now on, watever i do, God will empower me, as long as it's biblical. Therefore, i'm taking up the challenge to be a CL by next quarter! I had reported duty to Pastor Jeff, Raphael and Matthias! YJC will not be the same anymore!

Although i may be very terrified by this challenge (which in fact when i was been prayed for, i trembled), i know that God will be with me. The vision and word he left in my heart shall not return to him empty-handed, it'll accomplish his desire, it's surely will succeed! Personally, i knew that if i don't respond to God, the only person that will lose out is actually me! As God will readily choose other person to take up the task! So, out of obedience, i take up the cross and deny myself!

Furthermore, i realised im an activist worshipper. Meaning, the best way of serving and expressing worship to God is when God grant me a task or commission me a duty. I'm fascinated by wat is to come, and how the Almighty one is going to use me! Let's game on!

I'm going to write my own ACTS chapter 29!

playlist!

2007-11-19T00:24:00.001+08:00

ACTS 29

2007-11-14T00:14:00.000+08:00

Within the span of 7days, many AMAZING things occurred!

First up, i patched up with 2 brothers, whom i had strained relationships! Next, thru an unusual incident, im much closer with my family. Then, was the surprising easy (disclaimer: as compared to prelims papers) A-levels!

It was a roller-coaster ride of emotions! God, i think you're awesomely GREAT, for all Good things come from you, including a pressing need for wisdom. I really dont know how to express my gratitude. Maybe, i'll be a good boy n study to my best for my As! haha.

Oh ya, ACTS 29 is coming! I'm so excited for it! Can't wait for a fun-filled, divine exchange, man.

the battle is half fought

2007-11-06T23:50:00.000+08:00

31/10, 2/11, 5/11, 6/11, 13/11, 14/11, 16/11, 19/11, 22/11.

These are blacklisted days. Days i dreaded it to come; yet days that i hope it would pass quickly, so as to get it all over and done with.
Finally, i'm Halfway thru it. Aft shear hardwork and determination, i managed to pull thru the 1st few lap. There is still 5 laps to go.

I'll not forget this period of my life. Deprived of my personal freedom, I'm not able to do things i wan. Although the things i wanna do, may be not the things i should do. PPl not responding to ur desperate calls, everyday probs, DAMN As, what meaning is there in life.

Lord, I'm stepping out, from my comfort zone. Let it go for me, Holding on to me.

Life is very tough esp when u r a Singaporean. Like wat we r taught, our poor country has no resources, thence, it can only be dependent on us. As a result, the pressure is on us, who r known as the future leaders. I really can't take it any more. 1 chem paper2(less killer i hope) 2 more MCQs, 1 Application paper(as if it is of any practical use), n 1 H1(always been assumed as a redundant subj) more.

HOWEVER, i'm glad for wonderful comrades who fought endlessly with this oncoming, overwhelming war. I wanna Thank God for Matt, Joy, Canice, Michelle, Kai, Shem, DC, Shawn, YH, XL, WL(my wonderful maths tutor who risked his GC for me), Jon, all the other j2s, O-levels students, some who kept mugging, and not forgetting those who prayed n gave all of us moral support; and The CHURCH(powerful prayers) and YOU=JESUS Christ!
Without all ur consistent support, we'll or at least i'll be 'pianged' as wart Matt always said!

1 COR15:58-my fav verse.

Life sucks

2007-10-19T01:57:00.000+08:00

Life sucks esp when As are in 11days time. It sucks when ur ministry isn't doing well. And when ur sheep arent responding. hiya, even health fail u! All is because we want to live a righteous life. But at the end i believe it's aft all WORTHWHILE.

Birthday

2007-10-02T01:26:00.000+08:00

My birthday was on 29 Sep! But that day my CG did a terrible thing to me, they poured flour over me in order to celebrate a memorable birthday! Indeed it was memorable! Gross, we got scolded because of that, man. THEN, the saddest thing is that they chased me away! Yet, no one walked out of the foodcourt with me, man. I'm so sad la, seems like everyone has walked out of my life! I'm rather pissed, as i'll be going out later that evening, n do not wan to be like a joke. At my 1st defense, no 1 came to my rescue.
Thankfully, Pete n Mervin came n cleaned me up. After cleaning up, i went back n received some affirmations, before leaving with MATT to eat at Carl's Jr!

Seriously, i felt that this year was a terrible one for me. I got my A-levels to worry abt, boy! So stressed until i had pimples outbreak (1st time in my life!) I also studied like mad for the very 1st time, cos As wasnt as easy as i thought! In fact, it was 10 times more difficult and challenging man! So u peeps out there, pls do not play too much during ur As.

I seriously, needed more discipline to study man, God pls help me!
Life indeed was tough for me! For i don know wat course shld i go? Better score an AAB, before deciding..

1 COR 15:58! I'll pressed on! Pray for me and the j2s!

Faith without deeds is dead

2007-09-09T01:41:00.000+08:00

FAITH WITHOUT DEEDS IS USELESS!

Today, i went service with a very low personal attendance. Well, it's because 3 of my sheep can't make it for service man. By right i should be very discouraged, but i was ironically refreshed after service!

Pastor Jeff delivered a very practical and powerful sermon! His straight-in-your-face approach was extremely cool and respectful, man. I really learnt a lot from this great man of God! I really like him, can't stand ppl who r half-hearted for God. I mean it's so logical and biblical to follow GOd and His word, and yet there r many ppl who only do lip service!

However touched I am by the sermon, i was quite sad in a sense. Cos my sheep are unable to receive the transforming word of God. They missed out BIG TIME man. Hiya, i doubted I am able to preach as life-imparting as my role model, man.

Another point worthy to make is the worship atmosphere today was TRULY AWESOME! I can literally touched and felt God la, thanks to the YWAM team, esp yao guo; the led by spirit keyboardist.

Then straight aft svc we headed to America room for j2 appreciation! I received a scroll! Seriously, i think the scroll idea was very fantastic! It totally motivates me to study hard for As, so as to get the actual precious scroll.

Hence, to apply the teaching, we decided to study toge as a yj community at yishun aft dinner.
We reached long john at around 8pm. Studied all the way till 11pm, before i blogged! It was a fruitful time of fellowship with yan shi and SHE + jo.

Anyway, i burnt out my 1 week of vacation, man. Well, at least i complete studying a few bio chapters. But i need to buck up!

Next Saturday is our church 16th anniversary! It's at Downtown East, yea means another wonderful event to look fwd to and to enjoy one another's fellowship! Yet, it also reflects that As are around the corner!

52days to As!! I'll keep all the j2s in prayers. Pray for me too! Oh ya, pray for the j1's promos and that no one gets retain!

Retreat at canice hse!

2007-09-02T10:03:00.000+08:00

Now, im at clement's sar room blogging!

The yj CG is having a retreat since last night! we bought a lot of food before we go. First up, we played FIELD SOCCER behind her hse! 5 per side. My team (joseph, pras, michelle, ben, me) lost, sadly. Next up, we had a few games of prc evolution soccer on ps2 (slim version)!

After much persuasion and waiting, we finally ate dinner at 7 plus! I'm telling you that Canice's mum is a fantastic cook! You'll cry when you eat the XO chicken or the fried fish! haha, after a sumptous meal we headed to the living room to watch Bolton vs Everton and Liverpool with Derby simultaneously! Bolton was defeated in their home ground; 1-2. As for liverpool, she thrashed Derby 6 nil!

That's when ppl leave and some came. Left: ben, pras, michelle, ANDRIA. Came: gisela, Li xin, dawn, ANDRIA. Stayed: thad, YShi, YShan, jos, SHE, Joy, canice, me (plus clement)!
Anyway, andria totally screwed up our plans, she came and left in 30min, although all of us try all means n ways to retain her..

We watched Passion of the Christ at around 1am, then slept till now.. I hope we will retain lots of memories. God bless the J1s in their promos and j2s in their A levels, left with 60days or so!

Prelims r here!

2007-08-20T00:28:00.000+08:00

PRELIMS are here! OMG! i wasnt 100% prepared for it! How?

Ya, wanted to say my CG rocks! I had alot of fun 2 fridays ago and last friday! The day aft National day we had a unit CG! we went to a romantic place--Woodlands town Garden! We played captain ball, basketball, soccer and FRISBEE! BTW, my team won the captain ball match beating 3 teams! The side effects: SUNBURNT, for i wear track attire.

2 days ago, we had a fantastic CG! Ben's games was Great! YAN SHAN's flour games was Wonderful! i dirtied my whole shirt la!

As usual i was forfeited, even though i followed the RULES!

Oh ya, I just realised a function, that's to add image to my BLOG! m going to add the photo taken with cx and peter. we went Jalan Kayu's prata hse to eat. some kind of ex-cg meetups (peter is gd at maintaining reationships man!) and to pass peter his 2 week old present! A PORSCHE car model, i bet he like it!

Oh ya, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST S.B.! WONG DING CHUEN JOSHUA

God do bless the YJ group man!

LUKE

Now the pic:

Crazy school with Crazy prelims

2007-08-05T01:43:00.000+08:00

You know wat!? My prelims r in 10days time, and i haven studied anything yet!

This could be 1 of the trying time of my life. 1stly, YJ isnt growing, as even if there's new ppl, they arent committing nor converting! Next, is that our own ppl are not mature too. hiya, ppl kept ponning events due to sickness or other cirumstances. i guess we r facing some spiritual warfare!
In addition, i start to feel anxious for the growth of my ppl. don know when will they respond..

Anyway, Good news is that, im closer to my sheep! I have successfully get into their lives.. Today, i went to FOP with the whole JC district! It was a great experience. It just that the ushers of certain church is a bit insensitive and almost rude. I had a good time of praise and worship, a good supplement to my spiritual life! Besides, it was an amazing sight to witness thousands of ppl jumping and praising God! I don mind going for another FOP!

Anyway, the focus shld be on A-levels! I got to chiong! may God bless me!

Cursed weekend

2007-07-24T00:04:00.000+08:00

I wanna do a detailed follow up of this cursed weekend.

Come Friday, i thought aft been charged up by matt's convincing challenge during ytd's cg, i could do great things for God. BUT low and behold, i was reprimanded twice, one blow aft another for failure to do some bio essays and actually got caught for skipping chemistry ASP. With this defeated spirit, how could any ordinary human being be still faith-filled? So, i dragged my feet to invite ppl. Looking at my discouraged face, no wonder many flee at my sight.
On a gentle note, i thought that i could enjoy serving the church by turning up for decor duties. To my great displeasure, when we r having supper, i unluckily bought the most expensive dish, and ironically, its rice is fermented! The taste and smell was so gross that i had to endured, as i was very hungry. Notice im very sincere abt winning the sch, for i fasted till supper. Tragically, my first and last meal of the day was actually so disgusting. how can i not be sad?

I suspect that poisonous rice spoils my Saturday. Last week was so hectic that even on a Friday's nite i can't sleep well, since i got to attend SSP. Initially, i was awoken by my hp, but aft i snooze it, i ended up waking at 12 noon! That's the end for me, for my mum ponned PTD and i ponned SSP. As it was a service day, i decided to be positive and carry on my day by firstly shopping with YS. That day i also hang over XY into good hands. Aft svc, i went to crash YJ Chinese concert toge with JonQuek. As usual the show is CMI, but we managed to make new frens. oh ya, my stomach is constantly in pain too.

My beautiful Sunday was destroyed by A-levels, for i practically mugged the whole day. To note, A-level is just 99days away.. As mentioned earlier, we went for a prayer walk. It was very cool and have a lot of fun + some *explicit contents*. When i reached home, my day hasn't ended for i still have a mountain worth of hw to do. Hence i slept at 3am.

Waking up at 6.30am, the weather is optinum for sleep, but i rushed to my busstop. As it was drizzling, the traffic was delayed, and there go my $20(unworthy spending on cab fee and MC). But i managed to study stats and do SGC.

What a cursed week i have! Yet, i'll continue to live a blameless life.

Prayer walk

2007-07-23T15:01:00.000+08:00

yesterday, the YJ team went for a prayer walk. It's the most interesting thing happen to me for quite some time..

After yesterday powerful prayer, i thought maybe i could do sth great. Apparently, i was late today! OMG! what a lousy way to start a week?! Besides, i even took cab down, spent abt $12.60, yet cant enter the sch, as i may face suspension or even being expelled! Hence, i went to the polyclinic for a mc.. I don understand why i must face this kind of problems. maybe God wants me to rest, maybe it just that the evil 1 is cursing.. Anyway, i take it as a rest! Thankfully, i manage to finished my SGC, if not i need to face e music fr ATP..

I really need your help and providence..

23 for God

2007-07-01T02:20:00.000+08:00

Camp 2007 was great!

It has been a long time since i last had a goal, but God was kind to me by giving me a new vision and conviction to win YJ!

Hence, we have a formula--23 strong and biblical people by end 07.

P/s: we are in competition with AJC..

China trip + JC district

2007-06-09T00:40:00.000+08:00

From 20th-29th May 2007, i went to China for a family vacation. This trip to there was an awesome yet tiring one as we got to change 7 hotels, since i went to 8 cities. This vacation has indeed Borden my horizon, I've seen the world! China's weather and scenery are splendid! Given a chance i will go to the scenic locations of this beautiful country.

Anyway, i'm changing a new group and new CG, but (sadly, haha) not changing shepherd. This JC district would be a great place for dynamics and growth! I believe YJC will grow once again. PJC can also grow, given the mobility and the synergy of both genders.

Life indeed is getting interesting nowadays with the mega changes, but i need to focus on my studies, finally!

China trip!

2007-05-19T01:00:00.001+08:00

You know what?! I'm going for a China trip with my whole family fr 20-29th May. That's 1 more day! Ya, finally can take a break from all the hustle and bustle of jc2 life!

This trip, would be a meaningful one i hope. through this trip, i prayed that i would be even closer to dad n mum, n jie n ting. Seriously, this would be the very first holiday for the Chua family! There would be historical sites, shopping and Good food! I really hope that we could bond toge!

Thank God for such a great trip!

(however, no doubt i would be even more stressed aft the trip, due to overwhelming assignments)

Luke.

Just let me say

2007-05-06T01:50:00.001+08:00

After a few difficult weeks, i finally decide to be optimistic!
Today, we had service, and i went second service with ZY. We had an awesome preacher from Australia, by the name of Pastor Wilson Lim, who preached about serving God. It was a refresher for me as i was reminded about how God wanted me to certain things i was once burdened about.

I can't stand people who're bullied, there's always a compassion in me when i see some underdogs was bullied! Maybe, this is the holy discontent that many have discussed. i think i'll relook into the things i'm passionate about.

In actual fact, i believed im screwed today, as i woke up very late, like at 1230! OMG. I do have a compulsory maths lesson from 1130-1330, and i was booked by the same teacher for detention from 0830-1630! haha, after ponning his lesson, i dared not go school on monday..

Anyway, i was damn tired this week, though it's practically a 3-day week. before school started, i actually slacked for the 4 days. I'm so guilty for not been good steward of time. I watched countless movies and tv programmes, slept for numerous hours. Yet, come wed, i burnt midnight oil every night, trying to complete as many homework as possible. My fitness has dropped tremendously, as i thought i cant sustain the weariness. I'm dirt tired, that i almost fainted from fatigue yesterday, on my way home.

Seriously, i think God'll somehow blessed me; either allowing to escape from punishment, or provide me with strength to continue this hectic lifestyle!
Rock on God! *just let me say how much I love You*

I will live!

2007-04-29T00:52:00.000+08:00

Apirl is coming to an end, yet YJC still haven finished the syllabus! Ghoss, I'm seriously panicking for my A-levels!

God, i feel like dying. JC Life is very demanding, it sucks all the vitality in me. Life sucks totally, if you're a retainee in yjc class 212. There are 13 gals to 4 guys, embedded in 2 major gropus (cliques as some called it). I belonged to the bigger one, which does not consists 2gals and 2 guys. In my opinion, this is not a united class, perhaps because there are more girls, no offense man. Community of guys are always more fun, like 203 or 205..

Despite having a class full of politics, i am not spared from the stress of selection of first 12. Anyway, YJ can't make it in Basketball 'A' divison, so no point right? haha, i thought i could enjoy the company of committed players, but it's as if there are conflicts arising in the team.

Next was FNA2. Given a chance, i wanna share Christ to somebody, but looking at my tight schedule,it seems impossible. God help me.

So solutions are to focus on you i guess,so that i would not concentrated on the trival matters in my class. However, i have to admit i lost all my rights for being a missonary boy, since entering in a neighbourhood school--yjc.

On a personal note, i wanna thank God for my family! We are all going for a 8-day China trip in late may, hurray! In addition, God blesses me with YS and HZ. Both of them are doing well; the former is finally connected to us, the latter is growing tremenously!

A few concludsionsi would like to make:
1 gals are problematic and cliquish.
2 one need a strong community to attract one to attend school.
3 Jesus rocks!

Oh ya a divine testimony! Yesterday, after a long day, i went all the way to Woodlands to meet a newb with my cg. Then i went home with joseph. He insisted that i treat him a drink, i agreed thinking he may topped up my $1.50 to 2 bucks so that we can buy 2 drinks. To our amazement, we only have $1.70 after much search! But then i still believe in God that he'll provide for us,so we headed to 7-11. We decided to see is there 2 drinks on the promotion of $1.70, but there isn't. So when Joseph put his hand into his pocket, trying to act cool, and surprisingly there is 10 cents!And to make matters more unbelievable,we began dismantling our belongings, then he founded another 10 cents! Next, i heard coins dropped, when i picked it up, there is $2.20! So God answered our prayers, in a interesting way! yay!

God shall bless me as i trust in him, amen!
Luke @ Joseph's house.

Life sucks

2007-04-20T23:16:00.001+08:00

I wanna complain! Life sucks nowadays! The homework work load is so demanding, i can never complete it. Next, i have to serve detention just because i was absent from school( and i do have MCs, mind you).

being a J2 sucks!

2007-04-13T00:26:00.000+08:00

WTH! I blogged a long post and it was publish as a blank one!

I'm so stressed, being a J2 sucks for you know that you can't outshine your classmates, for you've no prior knowledge to all of your topic! i flunked all my tests, can't complete the overwhelming tasks and assignments, and even test corrections!

On a gentle, i still wanna give thanks, as FNA2 just had at least 1 new brother! Never did i expect them to be so ON! I was truly amaze at what God did on sat. he not only moved my heart in the clip--Why-- he also transformed the brothers' lives. Maybe this is the way how God deal with pathetic fellow like me.

I'm so stressed!
Luke

My Shepherd

2007-03-12T03:18:00.000+08:00

My shepherd is Thaddeus Matthias Chan who is my mentor ever since last year. Through him, I had learnt much, things like being more pastoral, always others-centred, always serving, how to be slack yet still get things done. I truly appreciate him, as although I'm a very difficult sheep, he still give his best to me. Without him, my relationship would have been destroyed.

Thad is a more like a friend to me, since he seldom correct me with an authoritative voice, but gentle point out my weaknesses. He is a very patient brother, one who is both a good listener and good adviser, as he always waited for the best time to reveal his intentions.

He is always other-centred. Whenever he buys drinks, he would never failed to buy an extra drink for his people.

Love is also his attribute. One can tell how much he loves his people (and his dog-Sassy) by what he does during his free time. I believe he always pray for his people.

It is my blessing to have such a strong spiritual leader above me!

Year 2007

2007-03-12T03:16:00.000+08:00

This year has been a very tough year for me. Especially, when you are in j2, when all the work keep piling up. To think I have Basketball training every Monday, Wednesday, and Friday, it's amazing that I still can cope.

We had Block Test 1, which i did very badly. The whole of January was very packed for me, as there was one week when I've had at least 15 assignments to completed! Despite owing so many homeworks, I still attended every basketball training! However, thanks to God's grace, i managed to pull through all the stress and survived till February. God also graciously grew our group by 2-HZ and Jay at the end of the first month! That service, we had more than 10 YJCians who came down and supported steadfall--Thad's band.

On hindsight, i practically used up on my Sundays trying to attend some CIP briefing, which held on the 4th. At 9/2/07, it was a roller-coaster emotions day, when the O-levels results were released. This year Valentine was the first year I gave out present to a girl! Normally, I would be always the one receiving. To my astonishment, I bought a pair of earrings to someone who didnt have ear-hole! To sum up, February was another packed month, since (as usual) i didnt mange to complete my overdue and ongoing work. T managed to played a couple of friendly matches in these two months, too. Because of CVD, on the 10/2/07 service, nexus had no YJCians. At the end of Feb, I sprained my wrist (which still hurts now) during basketball training. Consequently, i ponned a few trainings too.

March was a month that i look forward to, as there is a week of vacation. But, sadly, in that week, I would have 5 matches to play(or watch)! Anyway, this month was also the first time this year I took an MC, which cost $28! Also, every Saturday i got to come back to do detention for late-coming! Personally, it's dumbest thing to discipline us, man. However, i would used the time to revise for my Block Test 2.

I'm stressed up!

Overloaded Luke.

A Glorious 2006

2006-12-31T03:56:00.000+08:00

GOD, i wanna thank u for blessing me in this YEAR!

Breakthrough1: My studies improved tremenously! Those who know me well, know that i sucked at MATHEMATICS. And this year this a Great change! I obtained an A, finally after failing all maths tests. Next was Chemistry. I did so well that i was chosen to be one of the ten to represent YJC in THE 18th SINGAPORE CHEMISTRY OLYMPIAD! All this is sheer hardwork and the Grace of God.

Breakthrough 2: This year, i wanna give thanks to God for placing me in NEE2. This particular CG has blessed me so much that, i think the experiences is irreplacable. This is also the first time that I am so bonded to a community, to the extent that my best dreams 'actors' are the members of NEE2'06. Never in 6 years of knowing God, would I feel so attached to this group. Yet, God I'll bring the spirit and lessons of NEE2 to NWC4.
There's this saying 'One'll never appreciate what he has, unless he has lost it.' Now that i regretted not spending enough time to nurture a friendship, nowadays, I have done my very best to retain a lot of old friendships.

Breakthrough 3: Year 2006, indeed was a year of Personal growth and breakthroughs to me. I've trust in God more, pray more and serve the hardest i know how. Many people has impacted and transformed my life. God, also shown Himself more real to me, and have shed new lights
of understanding his words.

In short, I've more victories than failures! Let's look forward for greater growth in the coming year!

Spur on, luke

1st day of CAMP!

2006-12-11T08:39:00.000+08:00

HEY! today is the first day of camp, yet im having a fever NOW! Ghoss, either God wants me to rest (n not go camp!) or there is sth BIG going on as spiritual warfare wages inside me.

In any case, im really believe God for great things! Now that i set my objectives, im believing the Holy Spirt to do a great work in my heart! Here I am transform me!

Yipee, Kian Hwee is going, n so is Robin!

Charged up!
Luke

1st day at work.

2006-12-10T10:15:00.000+08:00

U know wat? tmr is finally camp!! N today, at 12noon will be 1st day at work at Grand Hyatt hotel!

Recently, one stranger called me n asked me to go down for an interview. Seriously, i have no idea on how he got my contact. He was from a MLM(muilt-level marketing) company. They work on the basis on assignments, which means commission-based. One stradegy they adopted is to invite ppl to join them, so that when those recruited accomplished an assignment(deal), those above r able to earn a small amt, called leverage.

This particular company also claimed that they are trying to train young punks into entreprenurs, by imparting them the skills of clenching deals and sweet talking. Initially, i was ok with the idea, as i thought sales could be my strength and some their products have healing properties! But i turned skeptical, when we r required to sell those 'great' products to our RELATIVES!

Hence, i prefer the per hour job to the per assignment one. Apparently, the latter would fetch you more cash, as i heard that some young people managed to earn enough, so much so that the company give them a car as a form of incentive! However, as one of my friend said, 'let's not try to correct the 'wrongs' that God allowed'. Therefore, i stick to the traditional way of making $--working 8-5, ironically, so as to be more mobile for God!

Im very tired as i only slept at 5am, after watching GHOST GAME at Kai's place(with timid Gi!).

Fatigue, Luke

im a shepherd!

2006-12-06T03:51:00.001+08:00

You know wat? I am a shepherd! i can't believe i can finally shepherd somebody! Just hope that i'll do a great job, while in NW. NW is a fresh start! I can truely start all over again!

cycling hurts, but it's great.

2006-11-16T01:35:00.000+08:00

Cycling rocks!

Today, I was awaken by a missed call and 2 SMSes. When I was about to get out of my bed, there came a downpour! Hence, I decided to slack longer on my bed.

After taken brunch and watched a few TV programmes, I chose to read a book. Unfortunately, I fell asleep. This time round I was awaken by a cal from Jon. He asked me to go down Bishan Park, so that he could teach me how to cycle.

Apparently, the park was very big, so we took 30min before we could meet. Finally when we met, he suggested to go to a less crowded area, so without much delay I jogged alongside with him. After about 2km or so, we settled at a spot beside a café.

You see, it just rained in the morning, and I’m very soaked with perspiration, I really doubted that I could master cycling that day.
However, after much attempts, I realised I’m able to cycle downhill! Whoo, I rock totally! Yet, this experience came with a price-my groin was still in pain even as I typed!

Seriously, I love the feeling of cycling, especially when you struggled so hard to master the balance. Now that I can cycle, I’m qualified to take part in Tri-marathon! Just one day, I could cycle to meet my friends for midnight supper.

Speaking of sports, I realised I do have a lot of injuries from doing sports. Blisters on your hands and feet could give you burning sensation whenever you touch and bruises all over your body give you excruciating pain. Maybe, this is the price of doing sports.

But, what one blessing I would share is that I still survive, despite having a few near-death experiences. Like just down when I tried to brake while travelling at high speed, I almost flew into the bushes or the chest pains I felt while jogging.

God really blessed me greatly. Thank you for guarding my life :)

I am grateful to you, God Almighty.
also to martin who now have access to the blog. =D

Bittersweet

2006-11-12T01:17:00.000+08:00

Bittersweet
God is a God of everything. He is also God of paradoxs.

I remembered vivdly that i told God that i wanted to change and move on in life. And to my great amazement, he allow my prayer to come to pass.

On 4 of November, just like other service day, i went down nexus early so as to help Kai with housekeeping. Apparently, he does not need help and have finished vacuuming the whole nexus just when i reached. By the way, i wana complainted. SIEW LUAN made me walked 4 busstops fr Far East to Nexus!

that fateful day, after SOS meeting, Thaddeus finally chose to shepherd me! haah, i mean, i was quite stable b4 tt day. We went PS cafe cartel n ordered 2 slices of cake. Moments after e cakes were served, Thad decided to tel me a very sad truth. When he said we r moving to NW, my heart sinked immediately and i dropped e glass of drink i was holding.

Wel, sometimes whenever we wan to do GREAT things for God, God really think we can really do it. Simply bcos his Spirit is sufficient 4 us. Knowing this truth, i still cant believe my ears. Hence, that day we started gumbling and stuff. until my shepherd remind me that we need to leave on a VICTORIOUS note.

God is a very interesting God. Occasionally, i regretted i made that special Prayer.. But then, i know i am made to impact and influence with my life. Lord, may my life be a blessing to others.

Today, when Debbie finally announces the transfer or restructuring, i witnessed a lot of surprise expressions. It was a werid feeling as i don know whether to look forward or feel depressed for my departure. But then, i wa reminded of the Abraham passage. God sent him to an unknown place, and when Abraham obeyed, he was greatly blessed.

God, i wana be like Abraham or like Noah who obeyed you! Sadness does weigh my heart down, since Every single NEE2 member has a place in my heart. However, we still could meet up in Prata house or Shawn's Shelter to fellowship and empower.
Remember dudes, im always 8 digits away..

gan ka wan duan(mixed emotions)
luke.

Life aft promos...

2006-10-31T15:06:00.000+08:00

I have broke e record of not updating my blog for more than 1 mth! haha, the whole month of October was a busy one for me.

Anyway, since now i finished my promos, i have a list of To-Do list! e 1st thing i told myself i would do is to watch as many movies as possible, and to date i have watched 7 movies; 3 in cinemas, 4 fr DVDs! haha, aft promo, i really think my eye degree would increased as i exposed my tiny pair of eyes to large screens!

E number two thing i would love to do is to do SPORTS! wow, i've perspired so much tt the sweat can amount to a dozen litres or so! I ran, kicked soccer balls, bounced basketballs. For rock climbing, swimming n cycling i haven tried yet!

Korean Dramas rocks too! Especially e one entitled "Full House"! I spent 1 week of burning midnight oil just to finish watching it. E reason is because e gal is very pretty! Critics have point out that she has only 1 flaw, ie she is short! Oh man, maybe she is suitable to me, since we r of e same height..

blah blah, i could go on and on...

Aspired to be a greatest sportman i can be!
Luke

Mischievous acts

2006-10-09T08:32:00.000+08:00

Wat will 1 do aft Exams?
Well, haha, e day aft exams, my friend brought beers to yj n i drank abit haha. wat a way to celebrate e End of promos! Then, i went Northpoint to play Dota. Unfortunately, i lost 2 matches. Maybe, i hv to admit tt Dota wasnt my cup of tea..

Instead of going for a class outing, i chose to go watch The Guadian with my CG! You know wat? My classmates thought i went out with some dates-with a gal! Despite my repeated explanation, they refused to believe i went out with a bunch of guys!
Beside e misunderstanding, The Guadian was an awesome movie! It's a must watch! Although they are dry periods, it was an overall great watch. I'll grade a four ouut of five stars.

Next, i enjoyed my 1st Carls' Jr meal, another wonderful experience! It also come with a manificent price! haha, i always thought all American fast-food are halal-certified. But, to my great amazement, I ordered a PORK burger meal! haha, Carls' will have a lesser profits, for 25+%(i think) in Singapore are Muslims!

Anyway, i really love my CareGroup!

Up to some mischiefs, luke

Divine Exchange!

2006-09-24T01:45:00.000+08:00

Today, was very divine!
Before attending service, i was reprimanded by my CG member for my habitual refusal to change in an area. Finally, aft so long, i then understand all their hardwork n all e corrections.
It is because today's sermon is regarding change, abt how 1 allow God to transform him fr e inside out, so tt i wouldnt be 'eaten' up by e corrupted world.
It was like a reminder fr God, as i believe it was a confirmation of wat area i need to change immediately! God, im determined to change.

E previous day, i was delighted at an old friend's sms. He was my Best friend in my pri-sec days. I believe if i wan a person to share abt my transformation in Christ, he'll be a definite witness for me, as he saw how much i had changed. Anyway, he was saying sth like how he misses me n stuff, as i went yjc(n sadly i retain, while he went poly).
Seriously, i was surprised at his sms. He even said he wanted to attend church, since he haven joined ch 4 quite some time.

On e fateful sat, another old friend 'nudged' me on msn. He is 1 guy who i had been trying to bring to know God, but apparently, he refused. Yet, when he said he was converted, i was rejoicing! Morever, he even converted in HOPE. My heart was leaping like mad, as it was so heartwarming to hear that your friend not only receive Christ, but also worshipping God in your church!

I m truly overwhelmed.
I asked God 'Is this ur usual way of dealing with me?' He assures me that i can bring my friend to know Him, by His grace. I mean, can any1 explain to me how is it possible to receive 2 awsome testimonies within a span of 2 days, yet with the similar purpose?

God, there's more that yet to come, amen? I strongly believe that i can do all things thru him who strengthen me! Phil4:13.

Soaked in God's blessing, luke.

Caught by PJ

2006-09-08T01:13:00.000+08:00

well, currently im at airport macs mugging 4 my promo which occur within 1 month time, im with alvin, sunny, hua xiang n julian. Aft doing inequalities for 1 hr, i decided to blog!!

Well, wana apologise for only blogging only 1 entry for e whole 31 days, month of August, as i was really held up with many tests.
By e way, im officially a floorballer of YJC (aft changing fr Track->photo-> rugby->swimming-> floorball). Actually, i really love swimming, but then apparently i was e slowest there(even slower than some gals!) n that i lost my trunks b4 my 2nd training, therefore, i chose e less hectic, easily to excel CCA--floorball.

However, personally i felt tt e floorball team wasnt as united as my former cca. It's like there's no dinner aft a strendous exercise, n no meeting up to go sch or hv recess toge. Somehow, i really miss those swimming moments, when we *scrubbed 1 another's back, *bathed toge, took *videos of guys been raped, ate toge n etc, etc(**censored). Anyway, i also realised a phenomenon, all SA-yjcians r swimmers. N since i hav a sort of attachment wi SAINTS, i really regretted quitting swimming..

Im quite fret up with August, as i was almost barred fr promos! Can u believe any1 getting banned fr taking exams, simply bcos he has a late record? My so-called gentle n nice teacher, mrs Ang actually confronted me of my lateness. She was so seriously furious that she pulled me to 1 side n lectured me. To say e truth, i almost teared during those confrontations!
Thankfully, aft not been late 4 at least a wk, i finally mastered the habit of been punctual, n as a result i was pardoned n allowed to sit 4 fr promos. What a terrfying period!

Begining of my birth month,SEPtember(hint hint), i did a foolish thing. I was caught red-handed for purchasing n consuming vodka of 30% by our beloved, impartial pastor. Pastor Jeff n his wife, Claudia were having midnite supper at kovan when i n another Christian went to buy alcoholic drinks. Frankly, tt was my 1st time buying beers on my own accord!
That fateful day, i went wi my 'accomplice' to eat some lousy quality sushi buffet in e afternoon. we then parted ways to relieve tt strong bulk in our stomachs. Later at nite,(aft a filling nap) i went to meet him again, aft watching jin shan shun(a korean comedy romance drama). We decided to buy tidbits, as we planned to hv a DVD maranthon. While in CHEERS, i suggested to buy e $4.95 on offer NITEZ drink. He agreed n aft footing e bill we started drinking on our way back. Seriously, i felt abit guilty. Then to my great surprise, i saw some1 waving at me... N u know wat happened.

Of course, PJ don approve my drinking, even though im just 28days fr my 18th birthday. Upon seeing wat our hands holding, he questioned our ages n whether did we account to our leaders. Thank goodness, he didnt really scold me n merely say a meaningful sentence:'talk to u guys another time'.

So, my stand is can drink but don get drunk. N always let ur parents n leaders know. Don drink so often too. Obviously, im not promoting illegal consumption of alcoholic drinks here. (hahas, can any1 beat me in doing e dumbest things)

MACed luke.

Orange crumpler

2006-08-13T01:09:00.000+08:00

Let me tell u all abt my 1 wk old orange-striped, tough-looking Crumpler, as e title suggested.

On e fifth of August, i made my way to Kai's hse, aft receiving his morning call. We headed to weelock's place L2 crumpler display shop. Aft trying a few designs, we then set our eyes on e unqiuely bright Orange-striped 1. However, the price was shocking, it cost $159!! Even though it cost $95 for all e solid small crumplers, i bought d Orange 1. Paying by Nets indeed is less painful, since u cant see e blue bills leaving u..

Btw, im e Fifth person in yj carrying this design(1 of them is my classmate), n i believe there r at least 10% of e yjc cohort owning messengers bag. Anyway, i really like my bag, for i believe it vould last me very long, given e caution i had when i bring it around n its material. It can also hold a laptop, which is an essential tool for Uni.

Cursed say may say abt my bag, as it brought along bad luck..

On mon i lost my Standard Chartered shoe bag, containing my trunks(which i wore it only Once), googles n a set of clothes in Northpoint. Actually, i ponned maths tutorial just to watch a movie wi Joel n Clement. Seriously, we plan to crash movies, as e GV yishun cinema security arent very stringent.. But apparently, they had to accompany me to find my bag, hence we had to abort our crashing expedition.
Well, i try to smuggle a 1.5L drink into e cinema..

Then e next day, which is a tue, i lost my frens' mobile phone. He had lent me his hp as i lost 2 b4 losing his.. Actually, i was feeling kind of sick as there is a unforunate happenings occurred in my family. So tt day, i left in a haste wi a very burdened heart.

Hence, e National day holiday i didnt spent it well. I was reading harry potter bk4 thru'out e break, instd of hanging out, making memories n having fun.. What a waste! So unworthy of me to be excluded fr e great experience of having only a 2day sch wk.. I vowed not to lose my hp, so as to always contactable..
2 lessons i learnt, 1st is nv smuggle food n pon lessons. e 2nd is to be extra careful, nv let ur guards down, although a lot of mishaps has occurred.

Worried luke.

breakthru1000,usher,BBQ

2006-07-16T01:26:00.000+08:00

Today, i woke up aft realising tt i missed QT bcos i was addicted to harry potter, n so called forsaken God's word! hiya... ought to repent!!

Anyway, i rushed down to Breakthru1000 in my uniform. I managed to reached there on e dot, haha. I can say tt i was truly touched by God. While we were interceding for our schs, i suddenly hv a great compassion 4 yjc.. I started tearing. It was uncontrollable.
It was until today, tt i realised God is really an interesting n creative God. His ways are always extra-ordinary.

Aft drinking some sour plum juice wi NEE, i set off to e promised land--YJC. On the way, i felt asleep. I actually prayed for responsive contacts n making an impact!
You kn wat? Even my stint as an usher was very short, i managed to make 3 friends wi 3 parents! Believe it or not, i think i might get e best usher award. haha. The parents commented tt my service was splendid, haha, i think YJC owe me 1..

Next, i returned hm to change n headed to Farleigh ave. Sprinted for 100m or so, i finally reached canice's terrace. It was smokey n smelly. Down there, we cooked n a lot of fun. Oh ya, forgot to share, 112 was there to celebrate MX, our bossy female classmate's birthday.
We played animal concentration n Truth or Dare, while i ate 10 partial burnt chick wings! some of us have alot of funny forfeits, i thus, had an enjoyable time. haha

oh ya, mus give kai's cerdits 4 remaking my blog..

BBQed luke.

My irony results

2006-07-11T10:34:00.000+08:00

1stly, 3 cheers n 3 cheers n 3 cheers for Italy, HEHEHURRAY!! Italy won France n became a four-time Champions for e fifa world cup! Im so proud to share her glory, as i witnessed e heartwarming match ytd at kai's hse.

i received my BT results too.. Fortunately, i achieved an A for maths(wat a breakthru!) B for bio B for chem! ironically, at e same time, i got S(43%) for GP n econs...

however, i wana comment tt God has blessed me with this result! I never imagined i could get 82% for maths, as it has always been my weakest subj. frankly, i has yet to pass a single maths test since last yr. This was my 1st time! Praise God!!! Well, my secret formula is work hard, pray hard! B4 blk test, i actually spent 1 wk doing alot of qns! do believe u can either verify wi my CG or those BCC ppl! haha, im really overjoyed as i topped e class too..

God, im pleased with my results. It is like deja vu, as during my Os my EL, AM, SS, are my boderline grades, but on e 28th feb 2005, i got an A2 for El, while B3 for both AM n SS!!!! Now, history repeated itself, in order to humble me, God granted me a double S n a Double B (both che n bio i got 67%).

Thank u God.

Overjoyed Luke!

The only time i pon CG

2006-07-10T03:00:00.000+08:00

On the 6th june, while NEE2 was having a memorable CG at rc, i was sleeping at home. That was my 1st time i truly pon CG. Upon waking up, i realised e sky was dark, i literally jumped out of my bed. Feeling angry n disappointed wi myself, i rushed to check up e exact time, typed an apologetic sms in a haste, simultaneously.

Who/What to blame? BLame it on the Woorld cup fever, as i had been watching how 22 men in a big field chasing aft a white ball wi golden n black lopes, for 2days(mornings).

e 1st match is e semi-finals between Germany n Italy. Italy won with a last (2) min shots, scoring 2 goals into e Germans' net, securing a place in e top2. Final score, Italians 2, German 0. Aft watching this fabulous match, i slept till 1030, n headed to sch. (of cos, my mum scolded me for watching till so late, during her morning trips to e loo)

Subsequent match was France vs Portugal. This time round i watched wi Hua Xiang. I remembered leaving my hse at 2am n headed to Cheers to buy some snacks. Next, i travelled to his hse to watch e exciting match. u see, France won e 98'world cup, but Portugal had yet to win any of e 18 world cups, but they r considered a blackhorse, since they knocked out England n Nederlands. Hua n I had enjoyed e match.

After 2 nites of lack of sleep, (plus e sleep debt accumulated during e hols) my body was drained out. Yet, i still addicted to Harry Potter. I had been reading bk2 n 3 during June. To everyone's atonishment, i had been reading prisoner of Askaban on thur afternoon, aft reaching hm at 3+.

No wonder, i dozed off n had been naping like a dead log, as even 2 alarm clocks tt i set could not wake me up fr my slumber. I recalled waking up at 1030pm tt fateful day. Franctically, i jumped out of e bed n sms apologetic smses to my fellow bros.

Hiya, i had learnt to go rc earlier, instd of staying at hm. At least, someone is present to wake me up. haha, i know i cant kick reading n e habit of staying up at wee hours to watch soccer, then again, i will vow not to miss any CG.

Fatigued Luke.

June

2006-06-29T10:52:00.000+08:00

Wow, i realised i NEEDED to blog!

In officially 4hrs, i just redem my freedom! Yipee, i cant believe i study so hard 4 yj's blk test. Well, it's just merely a 30% of my promos, n who cares if i retain again! haha, i long to have this thoughts, but hey im a changed man! I shall work hard not 4 myself, but for Him, D Almighty.

This June, i would say i have make full use of it. Recalling, those nites when i stayed up just to catch World Cup finals. no wonder my average wake up time is 11am.. My fav match is Brazil vs Aust. Ronaldino laterally juggle his way thru e Aussie defence. N 1 pt to not, he never loses his ball, kept possession, whenever he retrieve e soccer ball.

Personally, e highlight of June was E ENCOUNTER Camp. It was marvellous, fabulous n wonderful. I have no vocab to describe it. E presence of God there was so thick, that even e bacteria felt it. God is so real in this camp. Well, maybe someday i'll dedicate 1 post for e camp. But i really enjoyed it! i dared to say tt e bonds in NEE is so much stronger. i really Thank God 4 these guys, man..

recently, i dawn upon e fact tt i have really True friends. Well, my definition of true friends=those tt when u don see them, u'll definitly misses them; when u r bored, they 8 digits away; etc. Well, i believe i sounded cheesy here, but hey all those points actually came alive. indeed, i'll miss them if we don communicate up to 1 day. well, i may even choose gals over these bunch of guys. Seriously, i wana thank God tt He place such wonderful ppl in my life.. really appreciate doing life n serving God with them.

haha, e reson why i mentioned my die-hard friends is bcos this june, we really enjoyed 1 anothers' company, n ineviitably, we made alot of fond mermories toge. We watched moives, jammed(even though i aint as musically inclined as most of them0, bathed toge, slept toge, ate toge, n i actually Never went hm for exactly 7 whole days, just to hang out.

Team nee2
thad, Shaw, Kai, DC, Kok, ZQ, Ger, Eden, Ste, nor, jona, ken, chris, jaso, ZX, n me.

examified luke.

Napfa

2006-05-23T10:31:00.000+08:00

NAPFA= Naughty, Aching, Painful Fitness Award. I had 2.4km test on thurs n 5 station yesterday.

Results: 2.4km-2nd of e 1/2 J1 cohort [who is 1st:( ?]
;7pull-ups
;230cm for SBJ
;61 sit-ups in 1 minute
;Stretched for 49cm for SNR
;Dash 9.1s for 4*10m Shuttle, run.

+soccer for 2hrs

Now, here am i suffering fr all e cramps n muscle aches. :(
Shld always do warm up n cool down..

Da Vinci Code seminar

2006-05-17T11:21:00.000+08:00

Aft ponned pe, i went straight hm. Came out again in e evening to meet NE bros for a round of Dota, b4 attending a DVC seminar.

Joel came while i was in e midst of a battle. Aft fetching him, he has witnessed my triumph when i used Sleath Assasin. I had 6kills n dead once! Due to some eager to be punctual guys, we were asked to abort our mission. Surprisly, on the hall of fame, i was ranked 2nd!

Thankfully, we were on time, as we managed to get decent green seats on the left. When Pastor Ben arose to the stage, amazingly, his 1st concern was to appeal to us to move in, so tt we can offer seats to some late-comers. My row of bros then, turned n was ATONISHED at the overwhelming response! In our eyes, we saw a fully-filled Auditorium! It was heart warming to know tt there were so many ppl who wana know the truth.

The seminar was enriching 4 me, as it not only strengthened my faith, it revokes my interest in Teology. maybe, in e future, i might futher my studies on Teology. It was an awkward experience 4 me too. At the end of a 1hr long QnA session, we were invited to pray 4 one another--yes, i nd to pray 4 Joel. Initially, i thought he was a pre-believer, hence it was kinda of odd. However, aft much sharing, i realised he was a Harvester. At pastor Ben's charge, Joel wana be more committed to God. Although it was kinda sad to hear fr him tt he don wana choose Hope, it was still assuring to see 1 more bro been connected in e KOG.

NE literally flooded PS' BK. Those waiters wana call a day off n there we were came strolling in n ordered some pathetic 'students' meal'. What a business?! I had an interesting moment of debating n discussing politics with sunny n DC. Anyway, i was glad tt Joel enjoyed e Hope's company. To think tues still have a long day, really put me off n forced me to have a quick shower b4 turning in.

Btw, dear God, i can sense a tingy winey growth in me...

Refreshed Luke!

An unexpected visitor

2006-05-16T10:47:00.000+08:00

Oh well, yesterday when we had Econs tutorial atJ4-17, there's an uninvited guest. It started out when yan shuang said camly, 'there's a lizard here'. U see, she's so collected n soft tt every1 didnt notice her. However, due to my sharp(not literally) ears i heard her (maybe bcos guys r better at listening to small noise).

Wanting to liven up the class' atmosphere, i started screaming, "there's a LIZARD!!' Mrs tan actually jumped away at the exclaim ( now u know wat to get 4 her on !st of April and September)! haha, e whole class frantically screamed.

Then, out of a blue a black-belt holder wonder-woman came n gave a high kick onto the table top. Oh, btw, tt creature is underneath the desk, beside an empty Pringles. The courageous gal is noneother than GIsela. (applause) Aft witnessing an heroic attempt, i too act tough by drapping the 'nest' wi a broom, thinking i can shove the reptile out fr 4th floor. If it landed on somebody's head...

However, it was requested to leave it alone by the entrance. We then continued our lesson. Being paranoid, i kept checking my area. Actually, i wasnt really afraid of the tiny thingy. I just felt that it was very dirty.

Paranoid luke

Worst Maths Test ever

2006-05-10T11:05:00.001+08:00

Aft 8days, here i am to blog again!

Using the CL break, I am now in e MRL penning down the dislike of this morning's maths test. Having burnt midnight oil till 4am last nite, im looking forward to today's exam. However, im disgusted at the maths teachers' remarks. All the half JC1 cohort suppose to have our test in the pathetic hall. Upon reaching there, as there isnt any seating plan outside the space allocated for a decent seating plan, my class decided to occupy the last 3 rows' seats. To our surprise, there were a few other classes came strolling in.

Next, the teacher bellowed n ordered the late-comers to get out of the hot hall, since the test has commenced. Those dudes then claimed tt we took their seats, thus, we r asked to leave n searched for our Original plan. Taking the lead, i sprained to the GO n memorised the figures. Then, while heading back, i shouted our seating arrangement repeatly.

The vicious cycle continued when we chased 105 away fr our seats. Finally when i settled down, anothere problem arises--there werent enough Qns papers for the not punctual candidates. My body was also responding fr the dash, by ozzing heat thru the sweat holes, i then resorted to unbuttoned my shirt. In my mind, i wasnt care if anyone is perturbed at the sight of my 6 packs.

U see, i don understand why must the teachers stick to a certain plan, which is so inconveniently located, neither do i know how inflexible they are! Yes, im furious, as i could excel in this test, but they delayed me!

Aft GP test..

2006-05-03T09:44:00.000+08:00

Here am i again! In sch, using illegal break to blog!!

Aft finished a GP essay test, my class suppose to have chem tutorial. Apparently, my tutor wasnt free, so another chem tutor came n invigilated my class. The initial classroom was occupied by a CTG alr, so she went away to find an empty class. Upon having e keys, she instructed Canice to fetch us, but we were immovable. I presume she waited long enough 4 us, so came personally. In order to move us, she blew her top in the tuckshop! Wow, so unglamourous on her.

Next, she spent 5 min lecturing us, saying how disrespectful we were n all e stuff. We were all standing.. The amazing thing was tt she left the class. Bet she was too disappointed or embarassed to continue the session. Such a sad life.

Actually, i shld be grateful for been reprimanded, as in other colleges, teachers don even care abt ur exsistence. SAjc is 1 gd example on how lousy e teachers were. Shawn was telling me tt u can pon all lectures n tutorials u wan n yet still can run away scott-free, since attendence wont be marked. In a students' perspective, 1 can indeed have 'independent learning', but he will also suffer a great deal when e results r out. Some say Sa teachers suck n slag, sometimes i really admire their teachers.

Oh well, life in YJ maybe boring, but i did sth tt my friends saluated me for today. As today is a Wednesday, students can wear all authorised T-shirts, excluding e sch uniform. Hence, i wore a luminated, bright, dashing, n striking ORANGE class-tee to match my equally nice specs! haha, surely invite alot of peculiar stares. Anyway, im maximising e time spent in YJ, at least i could have some fond memories. Seriously, if i was in SA or CJ, i would probable do the same thing.

Now, it is pretty obvious tt my fav coulor is ORANGE!!
life still have to go on. I need to survive in this much-hated college.. God, do make a way in my perspective towards my alam-mater.

ORANGIFIED Luke.
3/5/06--10.13am

The day Aft May Day.

2006-05-02T10:32:00.000+08:00

Now, here i am in YJ MRL, using com! Haha, im having illegal break, as i was exempted fr taking H1 CL! However, i still prefer to promote, if given a chance.

Anyway, Do u all dudes know WHY we celebrated May Day? Well, It simply isnt bcos we get to get rest with e blue-collared ppl(manufacturing sector, maybe tt's why it's aka labour day) , But also it's the 1st day of spring (always, i guess). Wonder where do i get this pic of info? It was extracted fr DA Vinci Code, another book by Dan Brown. Haha, i guess, some eyebrowns r been raised..

Dan Brown indeed was a marvellous writer. He has such wonderful fantasy, tt others couldnt fathom. However, <> , supposing the pre-story to Da Vinci Code, had a lousy, low graded Ending! Ghoss, i bet RAYSON would identify with me.

Btw, let me make a disclamier here; the motive to read the MR. blasphemy's books is to capture the interesting story plot and the fantastic wordpower! Also, i disapprove to a large scale with e so-called facts in the 2 books.

Calling out to hunks n babes out there, 'who of u wana catch e DA Vinci Code moive, opens on May 18?" Well, do contact me at 81331489. haha. maybe, i shall watch with Rui..

Anyway, jus to cerdit a few blessings to God n Luke's perseverance n hardwork. 1st up is i achieved a 25/28 for chemisty, tt's a 89++% if u use calculator, meaning i top the class! 2nd, i ve a pass(finally) for my most recent maths test! Those of u who know me, will understand tt that was a breakthru, as i had nv, YES NEVER, pass a single maths test last yr( big n small, impt n insiginficant, maybe tt also explains my retention..) NO 3: wow, I cant help but to thank God, as 1 also come in 1st few in Biology, too. ( can't help it, but i kept topping the class 4 these 2 subj...) haha, very complacent huh..

Well, my block test(i.e. MYE in late June) Targets r: AACc, B4-GP

Pridified Luke UP(=in mandarin)
the day aft MAy DAy: 2nd may 06 11.05am
Sch MRL..

Lousy

2006-04-27T23:45:00.001+08:00

ARGgg...

I know all of us shld be trained to be highly positive ppl, who r always optimistic! However, i jus cant! It's as if e whole world like owe me or sth!

It all started with my PRE-dominion with CL gals--class! These ppl they arent as interesting, as i deem a PURE chinese class shld be. Instd, these ppl they r very multi-Racial, very harmonious towards those melanine-painted ppl.. Well, i shld for 1 thing thank God for blessing me with a pure class, at least my eyes wont get colourised.. Anyway, over the YJ's lunch table i debated with 2 spiced-up female classmates of mine. We talked abt whether racism shld prevail.. They just ended my day. I wanted to stop, but don wana "lose' to them n also wanted to bring my pt across. Maybe bcos of my hotheaded nature, i just soured a relationship, er correction, 2.

Hiya.. Next is my screwed up spiritual life! Well, it ain't politically correct to type tt, but i AM Wired up.. It's like u r stuck in a very low chair n need alot of strength to pull urself up.. Or ur car has blown/going to blow, but cant start it. Like a yoyo Christian, with no sheep to care, no more commitments. Now i can afford alot of time to do a million things, yet im feeling kinda weak n uninterested in anything.
God, u better start n maintain a revival. If not, i might jus wasted away. Swayed by e worldliness or Godliness, whichever wave is stronger..

My CG is dwindling as e days passed. Right now, every1 just compromise, including me. We aint as Word-centred as before. Placing Everything above God. All commit e sin, none pardoned! Well, i hate it! But as a non CT member, i cant do much. Maybe i shld 'earn' my way into coreteam..

Anyway, gtg n reflect..

Wasted away Luke, 12.08am

5 ppl u meet in HEAVEN

2006-04-22T01:21:00.000+08:00

Wat a gd read!!! I give 4 out of 5 stars. Yes, im doing a recommandation or book review, watever.

The author truely identifies with me! I love this novel. It's so realistic and applicable!

a powerful lesson learnt

2006-04-22T00:55:00.000+08:00

Die die must post this painful lesson.

It's regarding a person quite dear to my heart. Imagine when u had a good friend, n suddenly turn against u! A friendship like that was jus shattered.

Im a blunt, confident n straightforward fellow by nature. Given this personality, i believe i have had poisoned many with my unsharpened tongue. It just so happen that on a fateful day, i received an SMS--tt threathened me. Seriously, it disappoint me more than it scare me. It was typed by some1 im close to.

Unfortunate events doesnt end there. over e next few days, i received more defiant SMSes. I m terribly shaken to tears upon reading those mean messages. For once, i hated the media--the use of technology to destroy anothers' spirit.

Well, it all happen bcos, im too not understanding. That chap previously, actually poured out his life to me, sharing me his ambitions an d hopes, confiding me in most of his problems. One particular day, the counselling process still carry on, yet, this time, we ended on an awkard tone, i.e. that boy teared b4 me...

Once, a friend told me that, those were tears of unsatisfication, as it flow from a disappointed n broken heart; instead of tears of relieve, i.e. after sharin a burden.

When i heard tt, my heart sank. During those werid moments, as i don know how to react, i actually spoke some 'disturbing' words, as if rubbing salt into his wound. No wonder, he turn a cold shoulder towards me now.

God wat shld i do to salvage the relationship? maybe im really lousy at people's relations.. However, i'll learnt this lesson. Recently, as i read a book <<5>>, i felt tt the lesson is related to a life of lessons, even at the expanse of a friendship?

I'll keep him in prayer.

Saddened Luke
1.30am

Take e lead!

2006-04-22T00:35:00.000+08:00

It was a wonderful movie for me!
From underdogs hip-hop break dancing to elegant ball room dacing!

I watched on last thurs, 13 of April. I wana complain on e cost! On a thursday, the rate suppose to be $7.50, n yet i paid $9.50! I guessed it is bcos, it's e eve of Good friday--a public holiday! hence, the rate is regarding Sat's! wat unfair treatment!
No wonder privacy will alsways prevail!

FLushed out!
22 apirl, 12.45am

Blessings from above!

2006-04-16T08:37:00.000+08:00

Haha, it's a wonderful thing to revive a blog on a Easter morning!

I wana cerdit to God for blessing me exactly 1 week ago!
Last sunday, i was fellowshipping with Kai, Shawn n Aquila. We went to Shawn's shelter n chatted.
Well, obviously we not only talked abt God n stuff, but also guy's fav topic, i.e. GIRLS! Yes, we did share our crushes! Haha, u can nv imagine how far we could go. C'mon, a brunch of young punk gather together n confide, of course we said everything n anything!
BTW, i wana make a disclaimer here, well, even though we r Christians, we still do wat every1 does. Then again, of course the contains arent R-rated, jus homorous..

Anyway, i diagress too much. Wat i wana give thanks to God 4 is as we engage in the juicy conversations, we somehow forgot the time, although 3 of our hp rang. Hence, we stayed there till 12 plus! We actually took 851 or 852, cant remember, to amk central (went past SPC n AQ peed). Then i chose to wait at amk mrt, hoping to get e last bus.

However, logical speaking there wont be anymore last bus, as e last of all, even e employee's bus end operations at 12 midnight. I prayed to God at e bus stop, all alone, wi Kai.

Suddenly! Out of e Blue, a bus appeared! It was 165 single deck with air condition! We quickly boarded the bus. It was a smooth journey home. Really thank God that i can sit in e coach. If not, i have to go slimer as i had to spent on a cab. Ghoss, wat a worthless investment..

From that sunday, subsequent days im always filled wi Blessings..

Loss of her...

2006-04-01T02:09:00.000+08:00

She's always there for me. Im so dependent on her that i cant imagine life wothout her existence. Yet, to my great dismay, she just abandon me.. N not once but twice.
So reliant on her to the extend that i felt so detached away from this world because she's my source of security and communication. At her Departure, i doubt i could bearly survive effectively. No wonder recently im so tired and absent-minded, without her presence and reminders.. In the past, i would kiss her everyday, bring her along wherever i go. But now, i felt so incomplete without her touch. Sometimes, she make my day by annoucing some beautiful news. However, she would occasionally destroy my day with words. The saddening thing is that she holds a lot of my secrets-- my vain n naked 6 pack pics, memorable videos, encouraging messages, brutally honest confessions, all-time favourite Tennis game, fantastic collection of cars, lengthy contact list, secretive info, yet-to-prove-useful GPRS online service, upbeat songs. Where are you, my pride and joy? K500i.

Now, i have to settle without her! No longer there is lovely music to wake me up daily; which means i will be definitely late from time to time. I had to settle with Uncontactable status, resorted to use public phone n endured the inconvenience resulted.

Undoubtly, i believe i haven mastered e proverb on "Once bitten, Twice shy". On Wed nite, i had to part my mistress-N8310. Even though she is a bit shorter, less pretty or useful, her preformance is still acceptable. To my despair, this alternative wife also divorce me. She just varnished after Track, on my way home.. Im so upset.

Then again, i lost Kai's "Angles n Demons" by Dan Brown today at e canteen. Wow, this really shows how scatter-brained I am!

My own folly indeed discredit me. Without HP, i could not be effective in e KOG. Maybe tt explains e unfruitfulness in yj.. I ought to transform.. How, later is e end of PASSION?

God, why do u allow all these to happen to innocent me, a pathetic, poor chap?
Responding positively, God i promise i would change.

Divided brain cells quoted.
1 Apirl 2006, 2.510am

Pissed off!!

2006-03-11T00:59:00.000+08:00

I realised tt 'pissed off' is not appropiate 4 e title of my post, but, i really felt this way.

e 1st thing in e morning tt happen is i was once again reprimanded by my mum regarding some financial issues. What a 'great' way to wrecked my day.

Next was, instd of giving thanks to a timely bus, i was quite frustrated by e slow driver. He actually wait 4 every red light n drove passed ALL busstops. B4 i alighted, i remarked to him tt he drove sluggishly! At tt juncture, i felt guity.

Fortunately, i have Alvin to follow me to YJ, while his purpose is to actually crash YJC of all JCs. We talked a bit on Politics (wow, 1 of my best topics).

i pon 2 maths lessons straight then went to library n sleep 4 30min. While ponning, i spent e time crapping n cracking racist jokes. What a way to waste ur life? Well, i do prefer it to e teachers' nagging.

Aft lunch, my eye-candy came to yj!! How i wish i could pon chem jus to entertain her. But i did e opposite.
To my great despair, b4 e lesson can end on a better note, i was HUMILATED by my chem tutor. To clarify matters, i was just conversing with a classmate of mine regarding e regrets i had in YJ. (I planned to tell e gd side, but..)

I mean, why must he correct me in front of P12 and 1 more J2 class? Or cant he talk to me privately, like withholding his tongue? Or even, why is he so protective of YJ, as if i have e power to tear it apart, as if it cant stand under my criticism? How will he feel if HE is going thru wat im been thru?

At e manipulative words, my pride indeed was shattered into pics.. To make matters worse, i try to argue back. Argg, me n my unwise, rebellous tongue. I had no face to face anyone then. Felt very lousy n ashamed. It as if i was been charged with some major crime.

Even as i was re-collecting myself, i was reminded to keep a low profile for some ppl had been gossiping abt me. It makes me so insecure abt myself. Why ppl jus don believe i have no lustful thoughts when i approach gals, i sincerely wana have a friendship n tt's all.

During Jam n Hop, sth miserable happened to me. Being too playful, my naive actions welcome some 'taupoks', tt leads to e loss of my HP. I was very traumatised at the loss. It was my phone, LUKE'S! For once, i felt all my privacy are been invaded..

God i really don understand why my phone must be stolen now. U see, i need $100 odds cash to purchase a Graphing Calculator, a new bus stamp, now a new phone?

I felt really bad, yes just BAD. 50% of me wana accept SW's apology, while e other half wana declare a war! Help me to do e right thing, God. (Inner cry: Save me from this preverse world!)

In despair, Luke
10/3/06

a Sad life

2006-03-05T09:13:00.000+08:00

This another butally honest reflection.

It started out as i wasnt asked to go CTM, i mean at least let me know wat, instd of doing things underhandly, as if i don know wat HE is doing.
Come on, im a hyper-sensitive fellow, wat makes u think tt i cant sense it?

God, i really wana do well in you again. Bcos in e course of my unspirituality, i have either screwed up my life OR destroyed those once close relationship. i really regretted it greatly..

It was until yesterday, at Rayson's hse i finally realised my own folly. I have realised tt i have always failed to build strong friendships, let alone talk abt those relationships, tt will cause others to have emotional entanglement with me..
Maybe i was really a failure in relationship-making.
It was quite rare to realise my silly mistake, given my preide issues.

I have 2 choices, 1st is to sit here mourning; destroying the reputation of those who hurt me!
e 2nd is to seek God n truly start fr scratch and regenerate my spiritual self.
I chose e latter!

God, hey im ready to be used by You!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Help me, though....

Charged-up Luke!

Free? Do wat?

2006-02-13T21:56:00.000+08:00

Im wondering wat shld we do if we don hv sch/work?so disturbing

Inquiring Luke..

180?

2006-02-12T00:08:00.000+08:00

On e release of O-level result, 10 of Feb i had some reflections aft going to NE PM.Spiritually, i wasnt doing very well. But i go PM wi an open heart n Mind.

To my surprise, Jontay led e PM. He was so choleric tt made all of us pray. Initially, when Gideon ask me to pray, my heart wasnt responding, hiya too rebellous! Maybe he was my shepherd or maybe God uses Jontay to make me pray..

When i prayed, my heart jus respond to e music n tongues start to feel my mouth! I realised i really missed God so much tt tears start to well up in my eyes. Prayerfully, e PM was long enough for me to re-collect mself. I had totally surrendered myself to God!

It was then tt i realise e importance of God. It was a fearful sight to imagine Life without GoD! However, i really wish 4 a 180 change, i wonder who can help me? Thad? Gi? How i wish they read this frank post..

Repentant Luke
11/2/06

D Great God thing!

2006-02-03T00:11:00.000+08:00

Even having a bad haircut, a lousy day, I would still say that God is with me.

CG was fabulous!!! Two thumb-ups! Dannel-the-banana-man N Nicholas came!

God reveal some glimpses of our relationship during Worship. While we are doing QT, He spoke through his word--Psa42-50!

Despite all the stress I am facing, I'll still remain Faithful to him. For without Him, life would be tougher!!

In addition, I learnt tt this God thing is going to affect everyone! Throu bones n marrows, thru arteries or veins or tiny blood capillaries, He would work things out, just for our Good. Remember, no matter wat, God is Backing us up. Regardless of success or failures, gain or loss, good or bad times, God has a hidden plan for all of us!

Insipred Luke

A series of unfortunate events

2006-02-03T00:08:00.000+08:00

Today, I was awaken by my mum’s voice. She was nagging me to use the toilet. After had a warm shower, I was again scolded regarding some financial matters. What a Lousy way to start a day!

When I get down, e bus had already come! Although I boarded the bus, it wasn’t a marvellous sight, because my EZ-link card could not be read by the DUMB machine! Without coins in my pocket, I was compelled to alight and head to hougang MRT for explanation.

Upon reaching the control station, I was disgusted by some rotten service. Instead of solving my card problem, I was pissed off by the INDIAN’s “corrupted card”! She even asked me to wait till 10am for the service counter to open, forgetting I had school to attend. With a ungrateful ‘thanks’, I hurried away in a rage.

As travelling by bus is cheaper than train, I exchange for coins from a coffeeshop. However, the uncle only changed my new $2 bill for coins that is just sufficient for 1 trip! Boarding bus 27, I thought my day would turn for the better. To my dismay, an inconsiderate MALAY with a cigarette stench snatched away my privacy by forcing himself into the seat beside me.

Next, the journey to school was comforting as Shan Hui was with me. When I reached my class, I could bear anymore longer so I confided my sad story with P12. Alas, I was reprimanded for talking too much. Realistically, I was lectured for all lessons—1st period, pardoned for Chem, Bio (caught for not sitting with classmates), Lunch, GP (have to stand throughout the lessons, as I was late for class), and PE.

To make matters worse, I can’t go Yishun to replace my card, I have to go Sembawang. Also, I have to go toa payoh for a haircut and meet 3 guys for CG. Upon reaching S., I was once again pissed by a SMRT guy who only pointed to the direction, without any emotions or respond, when I requested for help POLITELY!
I’m so upset with the Singapore’s service industry!

At the counter, I not only hand over my card, I left my 45min n my handsome passport picture! SO I went loitering around Sunplaza. Out of desperation, I entered a Salon n ask for a haircut. Now, this is truly nightmare!

I remembered telling the hairdresser to cut layered, never slope. Yet! To my HORROR, when I wear my specs, it was very Ugly! The worst haircut ever! $19 is what I paid for it!

God, why?

Atonished and confused Luke